The movies and the men
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Posted:Feb 1, 2009 1:25 pm
Last Updated:Feb 9, 2009 5:37 pm
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When I was a young - I feel in love with the movie pretty in pink. like most girls of the time. I was already a molly ringwald fan but it just so happens I saw the movie just about the time I was going to my first prom... well long story short I could so relate to the movie. I had a really great male friend who was always there for me - would have doen anything for me ... just like duckie. But I went to the prom with Tom (my version of Blain). Anyway what happened in the movie happened to me but instead of beofre prom it happened durning and after... skip ahead 20+ years.
I married duckie....lol and like all women in thier 30's /40's I started watching the tv show sex in the city... a great release for .... me and women like me...
Then I joined this web site and I met my VERY Own "Mr. Big" it was good and great and sad and alot like the show... he really didn't want me... so when the movie came out I so wanted to see it with my friends but the few times I had a chance something came up and I didn't get to see it. WEll over the weekend a friend borrowed me the DVD... I cried the whole way through it.
It brought back all the memories of my "Mr. Big" who I hear has a real life girlfriend now. Ok so I had a good cry and I am back to where I was before...
but now for the hard part.
I am going to have to see "Mr. Big" this sat. You see it turns out that if we would never had met on this web site we would have met anyway... as our cirlce of friends are one in the same and touching if you understand that.
So now I am in knots about it.. I don't know what to do. I can't not go I am part of the planing of the party/event that will be happening. He is part of the entertainment. planed by two different people...
so is it fate... it this lives way of laughing at me... is it a sign.... or is it just a small world???
6 days and my heart is saying one thing and my mind is saying another......
What do I do? What do I do???
Happy Feb.
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What a weekend....
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Posted:Jan 26, 2009 5:47 pm
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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All week I was so sick. the weekend came and I didn't want to move... really I hurt my back and I couldn't move.
WTF....!!! I am way to young for this kind of shit to start happening to me.
And I know I am not making it any better by stressing myself out over these next two weeks....
But just taking each day as it comes.
Nothing much going on in my life right now... jsut kinda taking care of regular stuff, lots of boy scout thing happeing adn a few wedding showers coming up... ( I have to remember to tell them RUN!!!) LMAO.
No I wouldn't do that to any of them. they have all dated and had many boyfriends... so I think they have sewed ( sp?) their wild oats to say...
Anyway. I had a few minutes thought I would stop in and say HI.
It will get warmer... I promies.
xoxox
hugs & kisses
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Strike One
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Posted:Jan 21, 2009 11:34 am
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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Well It turns out Mr. Perfect was all show and no act. NIce guy had all the manors in the world. But didn't want me I guess. He has moved on and I guess that means I have too as well.
Well it was fun while it lasted... I guess. Sometimes I wish there was a comment card that people both men and women could fill out after a break up.. ya know what did you like , what didn't you like... something so you good learn and grow from each experince. But I guess that would be to much to ask...
Anyway... Home sick today head cold and just plain jsut feel like I need a day off. not really from work. Work is a cake walk, I guess just from life.
Everything is still "normal" at home. So there isn't any news there. Really don't know what the future will bring for me. Have a few things planed with friends over the next few weeks so hoping these might turn up so good things for me.
Getting ready for the big 38 in a couple of months. I am not getting my hopes up for anything this year. But I am going away for the weekend before. SO I hope to have a good time on my own.
well stay warm - don't worry spring is just around the corner ...LOL
xoxox
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Canceld out on Sat - but good to go for tonight
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Posted:Jan 14, 2009 12:20 pm
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2009 11:26 am
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"something suddenly came up" so date didn't happen on sat. night like I thought. But thats ok everything turned out to good as it was . had a blast!!
but reschedule for tonight, were going to go to movies- but not sure now with weather the way it is here. Meeting at his place so I guess I will find out when I get there.
No work for me today. hasn't been well last few days, so took him to doctor today. All will be fine, but who knew a six year old could have a torn intestend ( sp?) well meds and time will see if it repairs itself... if not surgery will be in his future.
So right now things are ok in life- lots of things going on ov er the next few weeks.
Best friends hubby cam ehome yesterday from Iraq. Going down there nest weekend.
Going out this weekend with friends....
Co-worker adn friends birthday party coming up 1st weekend in feb, helping out with party stuff there.
speaking for support group that I belong too ( still need to write what I am going to say_ I really should get on that.
Little brother birthday today- but still have to llok up to him , Ha- Ha...
Then before you know it... it's baseball and softball season. Nice to think about on a crappy day like today.
stay warm everyone.
hugs & kisses
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Date two
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Posted:Jan 8, 2009 6:32 pm
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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Went to his aprartment, ordered pizza, had a bottle of wine, watched a movie. Ghost rider, nick cage... how did he know I never mentioned that at all. Plus the fact that it's the only nick cage movie I haven't seen yet.
It was great. Sorry I had to leave.
Wants to see me again on sat. not sure how that wil go as I will have other friends there on sat. But oh well it's a public place ( the bar wher ewe are all going) so cross your fingers for me.
Hugs and kisses
xoxoxo
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NO WAY!!!!!
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Posted:Jan 4, 2009 9:15 pm
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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As I sit here righting this trying to hurry - so please excuses all spelling and typing errors. My hands are shaking and my heart is pounding.
for 2 reasons.
#1- I had a date on sat night.. A real FUCKING date. he opened every door he pulled out the chair- he held my hand and the cherry on top of it all he brought a single rose with him. I was totally not myself the whole night. And trust me that is is a good thing... I am usally the talker but lastnight I really don't remeber saying 6 words. so a few things. he is also married, he has two they are older than mine. everything he says made me smile, laugh or cry ( but in a good way). When I got up to go to the bathroom he stood up.....what planet did this guy come from???? I have been checking my phone all day but so far nothing. If I screwed this one up - I will kill myself. ( not really)
#2- Had a small fight at home tonight ( another reason I am shaking) and in the mist of yelling ( quitely as to not wake up the ) I said " MAYBE WE SHOULD TAKE A BREAK". He shut up and hasn't said a word and also has not come out of the bathroom yet. it's been hour.
So my life is either falling apart or actully getting to where it needs to be.
ps
Its cool I can right about this new guy here becuase I didn't meet him from here so he will never read any of this.. Ha- Ha
To wired to sleep
nite
xoxoxo
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2009- 4 years and I am still here
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Posted:Jan 2, 2009 7:59 am
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2009 7:05 pm
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Why????
ok well lots of shit to get off my chest so here it goes.
#1 the hoildays sucked - AGAIN -. I work so hard to make them nice for everyone around me and I get nothing in return.
Lets see lets start with Thanksgiving. We were not going to travel home for thanksgiving... I put my foot down got into a fight with my mom - stood my ground and I am sure I was on the list for good this time. when 3 days before the stupid husband accepts an invite to his sister in laws in teh same town where my parents live. So here we go I have to tell her that we will now be in town just not with her. I am sure you can imagine how great that went over. But like I always say - I want to be treated like an adult. But why does she always bring that up when it's being an adult with something bad... UGH!!!!!
#2 so Turkey day comes and goes. We are the first to arrive and first to leave. Tiny house to many people not enough food and the tv isn't working...Thank god for portable dvd player other wise my would have torn that house apart.
#3 lets move on to christmas shopping- hy tradtion treck by myself to buy everyone their dream gift- out from 9pm on thanksgiving night until 5:30pm friday afternoon. Don't go home until it's done. Spent every penny I had saved all year long and only bought myself a sweater.
#4- work durning the month is kinda hecktic, to co-workers have things happen in their lives where they can't be at work, I step up to make a good impression and take over duties of one of them.
doing a good job as people are thanking me for my help until one day Jack comes into the office ( salesman from hell) I am not doing the job EXACTLY like it use to be doen. the end result is the same but he doesn't like it. Jack can suck my big toes for all I care but of coarse word gets around and just made working a pain for a while.
#5-
Chirstmas- mother already not happy with me ( becuse of thanksgiving) but makes the best of it for the first 2 days- after that I ( and the and the stress) is getting on her nerves. Have to make my open their presents in one hours time because we have to get things ready for "brother and wife and to coem over and grace us with their precence."
These two people who would be dangerous if they had a brain between them and not two nickles to rub together. all of a suddon are teh gifts of the family. we eat- they complain about everything- I try to do everything to help out mom and get on her good side again- when my drops a plate and it goes all over. Who in theri right mind would give a 6 year old a fine china plate anyway....????? Well that was it- i was doen it was teh silent treatment for me the rest of the day.
#6- the gift exchange- we drew names this year and that was ok - I actually got a gift card for a store I will shop at. LOL
#7- gift from the one person that is suppose to care. I got a starbucks gift card. A. I don't drink coffee.B. I do go there and have a hot choclate once in a while but of everything in the world it wasn't something I had asked for or even mentioned that I wanted. No thought what so ever went into this gift. And I know what your thinking well what else besides the gift card did I get from the person who I have been with for over 20 years and knows me as well as anyone..... NOTHING. that was it. his excuses ( this year) was he didn't have time to shop for me.
#8 - work christmas party was cancelled to to HUGH snow storm, which I am proud to say I made it into work that day.
#9 New Years Eve- his chance to make it up to me right???? well we took the to a water park on tues to wed. Thay had a blast. got home wednight and I asked what time the babysiter was coming over and the look on his face said it all. We stayed home I drank and entire bottle of wine and I wen to bed at 11:38. Actually I feel asleep on the coach at 11:38.
#10 - Dec 11th & 12th passed and the world didn't come to an end. So I guess I have offically moved on.
So now I sit on Jan 2nd with a fun filled day planned and my 3year old is sick. fever and stomache. Had plans to meet a new guy today, but had to call and cancel. had tons of earns I was going to do but now stuck in the house all day.
I guess I will take down the tree and decorations from the house.
I am glad that everyone around me had a great holiday- I am glad it's over, a bit tired from all the running and planning- ready to start a new year.... Maybe this year will be my year.
Can it?!?!
Happy 2009 everyone.
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All talk and no action
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Posted:Dec 1, 2008 7:25 pm
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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So we have Thanksgiving out of the way now. and the shopping has been done- well 85% of it.
So now the count down to Christmas. Not in the mood really yet- it doesn't look like that from the outside. tree is up - cookies are baked- some gifts are wrapped- cards are already in the mail.. but being organized and being in the mood are too different things.
I signed up on another site and got a lot of responses- but so far all talk. Some are REALLY shy... can't fault them for that I was once there too. Some are to forward- don't want that.
and some are just talkers taking their sweet time. Going out on friday night to hear a friends band play. not getting my hopes up but who knows maybe Mr. perfect will walk through that door. Just to take me out of this rutt even if just for a few hours.
Cause on sat it's back to boringville. Hubby has his companies christmas party. Where I know and talk to more people than he does.
Well really there is nothing new in my life to talk about at all- and I wish that would change soon.
I really messed up the best thing I ever had. And now I am paying the price.
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Wow time is flying by
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Posted:Nov 7, 2008 7:54 pm
Last Updated:Dec 1, 2008 7:13 pm
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WEll I have been crazy buzy - with work adn new PT job and and been hanging out with some friends from work alot.
Went to a Halloween party on 11-1-08 and had a great time. I knew a core group of people there adn one of the people that I already knew seem to take up most of my time that night.
He must have had to really talk to someone that night , becuase I heard about his entire life in about 4 hours. He is a nice guy and I don't mind talking to him- but towards teh end of the night he started to "make his move" and I did something I haven't doen in over 3 years... I played the "I'm married card". IT's a good get out of jail card when I needed it...lol
He got my email address through a friend that was also at the party and now I don't know what to do-
Yes I do- I will keep being his friend, but totally brush off his advancements. If it was anyone else I don't think I would be like this but this guy isn't even close to my type.
I bought a new car this week- it's my first car that is the same age that the calendar says...LOL. and it's Angel white... so it's even more perfect.
WEll I guess that is it... PT time job will end thsi week - I am not working the holidays in retail - no way no how
and then it thanksgiving- Can we say SHOPPING !!!!!
Well stay warm everyone.
xoxo
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Good things adn bad things
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Posted:Oct 23, 2008 7:25 am
Last Updated:May 28, 2024 11:5 am
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What a very wacky few weeks I have had- But if I have learn anything at all over my life time is that there is a reason for everything I may not know yet what it is.
Lets start with me washing my ipod. (please do not try this at home) I went for a walk and left it in my jeans pocket and you guessed it it went through the wash- So no more ipod, well not to heart broken since I won it anyway I wasn't out anything- but hey I really was getting use to having it and it was great while I worked out.
Next thing that happened was my car started acting funny- So I took it in to find out it's got about 2 /3 months to live. I am not a car junkie but all I know they said $1500.00 to fix it. So now I am car shopping- the funny thing is since I took it in - It seems to be running just fine...
Next on my list of everything happens in 3's is that I got a really bad cold. I have had the stuffy head cold and the running nose cold and the achey musscle cold before but not all at once and not so that I just laid in bed sweating for 24 hours. Have no idea where I got it but Today I can tell I am on the up swing.
Believe it or not I went to work all week - except for today when I was feeling better but now both have it so I have to stay home with them- good thing it's one of the sleeping colds...LOL
ok on to some good thing-
Last Sat night I won a guitar. I was so excited. I was at a party sponsered by a local magazine adn they were giving away prizes all night long hats - t-shirts - beer sign and booze, but the grand prize was a white fender guitar. And I went home with it. How cool.
When I got home that night there was a small gift bag in the middle of the living room - I opened it up to find a brand new pink ipod. ( side note last sat was sweetest day and I had given "D" a magazine about the cubs and a cubs play off t-shirt and a B&N gift card as there is a new steven king book due out soon) So I am not sure if he had this already or went out durning the day to get it- but still a very nice thing for him to do.
and the last thing that I think is a good thing- with the economy the way it is rioght now - I was a bit scared to see about getting a car loan , but called the bank and with in a few minutes was approved. I was kinda shocked, #1 onnly being at my job since march and not having the other car paid off yet- I was expecting to either get turned down ot have some hugh intrest rate. but neither of them happened, I actually had a blank check with in 48 hours and tonight am going shopping for a different car.
Been doing a lot of chatting through emial and stuff - but I am pretty content right now- things are ok to good. NOw don't get me wrong- I am still sticking to my 18 month plan... but life is good right now. I like where things are going.
Hugs and kisses to you all - Have a very scary Halloween!!!
Boo!!!
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Thank you
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Posted:Oct 16, 2008 8:46 pm
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2008 7:04 am
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ok I guess I will have to call him my #1 FAN..lol
was able to send me all of my old blogs- what a very nice thing to do. And bonus I don't have to log on to this site to re-read any of them. how cool. Well a big thanks to RJM xoxoxoxoxox.
Well what a busy few week s I have had- with in school and work adn new PT job and one friend who murdered last month and another one going through a real tough time in her life right now...I have had more on my plate than I can handle.
I haven't been able to chat with any new people yet- but looking forward to it.
Did have a great date night with "the cop" a few weeks ago. and we have been chatting some- so I think it is going pretty well.
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Starting all over again
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Posted:Sep 24, 2008 6:20 pm
Last Updated:Oct 16, 2008 8:33 pm
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It is just under 2 weeks from the first time I signed up on this site 3 years ago. And early this week I was flooded with emails that my profile had been turned off. Well I don't know what i did wrong to have my profile turned off- So I just started another one.
I guess it's like New Years day come early this year. I get to start over. The very sad thing is that I have now lost all my friends contact names and the past 3 years of my life that I was blogging about on this site was the only place I had to keep all my thoughts and adventures. And they are gone as well.
I will always have my memories but I am such a pack rat I keep everything- I wish I would have saved all those blogs in another file somewhere- it was like having my secret life in a diary. And even I loved to go back and read some of them over again.
Well those who want to find me prob will and I am sure I will make new friends. But it's a lot of work setting up this profile thing if I get turned off again. That's it I am done.
Well for those of you who are reading this my old profile name was true_red1000.
Go Brewers!!!
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