Why do I do this??
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Posted:Nov 2, 2014 5:46 pm
Last Updated:Nov 5, 2014 6:12 pm
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Abuse myself amp;
My weekend was fun filled with the best life long friends a girl can have but gawd dam am I ever paying for it today...
There was a lot of drinks, a lot of laughs, a whole lot of dancing, a ton of pics and video's on FB, random men's on a few of the girls palm's and a voiceless E4N cause I laughed so hard all night...
So there was conversation at breakfast this morning before we parted ways about getting together again for E4N's BD which is less then a month away but I quickly made an excuse on why I thought that was not a great idea.. How do I explain to the group that I don't like BD's or even better yet celebrating turning a year older??
So my BD wish?? A quiet evening and some great conversation, think I'll find that?? A girl can only hope huh??
But for today, relaxation, a lot of Tylenol and a few smile's thinking about last night's adventure's
Hugs from E4N
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Am I a freak??
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Posted:Oct 29, 2014 6:17 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:31 pm
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My week is crazy and I feel like I'm in the spotlight and I don't like it...
I've been putting in 13-14 hour days all week and this chick is burnt right out.. I still have my ladies weekend planned this weekend and trying to figure out how to cancel without getting 7 other women pissed off at me, anyone want to host a bunch of crazy women?? I have cash!!!
No I'm not going to cancel but not feeling the mood for a alcohol, flirting and dance filled weekend, these women are nuts and I'm kinda scared lol
I'd rather just get under the covers for a sex filled weekend instead, sex and sleep sounds pretty good to me hmmmm yup I am a freak huh??
Ok Ok I'm allowed to hope I think??
This week seems to be really trying and I find it hard to concentrate at work since I returned, I was thinking it's the lack of sex but that's my professional diagnosis...
I really have nothing fucking good to blog about except work, no sex, no self luvin just work, I told you I'm a freak...
Can I drunk text anyone this weekend, I used to be quite good at it and I need the practice
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It's effin cold over here !!
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Posted:Oct 26, 2014 6:41 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:29 pm
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I think it's going to be an effin day cause of two effin things, one it's effin cold outside and two it's Sunday which means I have to go back to work tomorrow for effin sakes
I am feeling better today and was thinking maybe a drive to the city to take my mama out for lunch but the weather network is saying effin snow!! My effin ass is way to fragile for that kinda effin weather....
My cursed week is over so thinking maybe enjoy a little bit of self luvin before I hit the highway, I'll have to dust the effin things off including my effin ehemmmm, well you know
So I received a "you busy tonight" from a 33 yr old last night, you think these effin young guys would get into their head I'm not an effin cougar hmmm mind you a 33 yr old might be able to effin keep up to me, I have a lot of rage to effin release if you know what I mean
Well better get my effin ass in gear if I plan on getting anything done, hope you all a warm effin Sunday and if you don't well too effin bad !!!!
Warm effin hugs from E4N xx
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I need some TLC
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Posted:Oct 25, 2014 4:10 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:27 pm
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I woke up this morning, very early this morning feeling like shit
Not even sure if this is a cold coming on but never left the house, don't like feeling like this and yup I'm a big baby....
But, if anyone can find it in them to come and give this big baby some TLC, please let me know...
Tomorrow will mark two months since I last saw my best friend and I had a few moments today while it's creeping closer, especially on a day like today when I am feeling so crappy, he would have been here in a heartbeat doing his best taking care of me, that is just the way he was...
What some of you didn't know is 10 days before he left me, I brought him back home so we can exchange our vow's... As soon as we received the news it was one of the first things he said "you are all I need", I didn't hesitate for a minute with my answer... I knew he held on for this, he had something to look forward to...
After 15+ years of hard times, separation, support and friendship I just knew this was the final chapter to our story... But it took the news for me to realize that he did have my heart all those years and that is probably why I never fully could give it to anyone else and I know it will be a long time before I do...
I do find I am getting stronger everyday but the anxiety that builds up when I have anniversaries like our wedding or his death coming up, I find that I can't control my thoughts or emotions.... I guess this is part of the healing process but I am selfish and wish he was still here irritating me, what I would give
Sorry no sex blog tonight unfortunately that is not my inspiration today..
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He didn't ask to open wider
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Posted:Oct 24, 2014 4:54 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:24 pm
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The dentist you bunch of dam pervs
Get your fucking minds out of the gutter!!!!!
Woke up this morning tired, certainly didn't want to go back to the city for a 3rd time this week but got er done and am finally home in my fleece pj's, warm blanket and some nuts, if you want some of my nuts I will share
Anyway as the day progressed so did my itchy throat which feels like the start of a cold so will stay indoors, warm and medicated, pretty exciting huh??
Next weekend though I am off to another city with a bunch of other women, 2 by the way haven't had sex in 3+ years so this should be quite entertaining, who knows maybe they will have 14 effin orgasms if they get lucky enough??? Hint hint you know who you are for sharing that with me grrrrrr
But tonight maybe a little blogger chat, a little pervin and my nuts
Here's too hoping you have tons of orgasms, hugs from E4N xx
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Ok I just can't help it
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Posted:Oct 23, 2014 6:27 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:20 pm
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There is some really ugly dicks around this fucking place
I don't know why I didn't notice this before but as I'm cruzing profiles tonight, I noticed some very attractive dicks and then some not so attractive dicks..
Do you men ever really look at this fact??
I've noticed that there are some ugly pussies a long time ago but never really noticed the men so much, maybe cause I am not a type of person who really focusses on what a man's appendage looks like until tonight..
I've seen a few disproportioned dicks around here though..
Not that I really care cause I'm not searching for dick anyway, fucking PMS makes me think weird things 
Sighs...
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Saturday night & self luvin
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Posted:Oct 18, 2014 6:17 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:17 pm
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Something happened to me last night and no I didn't get sex you pervs...
I take a prescribed medication to help me sleep for the last few months and I learned once before DO NOT drink anything with these puppies but not that I am a follow the directions kinda girl..
Anyway....
Usually when I take one of these little things, I almost feel stoned not that I have experienced that in the last 20 years or so but anyway within minutes I am very drowsy, yep they work quite well minus the alcohol.... Last night I decided to have a drink to relax and took one of these pills, geeezus holy moly it's not a good feeling.. I feel like I can't function at all and I did this once before, you think I would have learned my lesson the first time?? Anyway after my tuck &...blog lastnight, I fell asleep with the comp on my lap and woke up this morning the same way sitting up and I was still tucked
So Saturday night and I finally made it home, reclined, pj's, remote, popcorn and just me, I'm getting used to it....
Maybe a little self luvin before I take my bedtime medication?? It wouldn't be good if I fell asleep while ehemmmm nevermind
Have a great Saturday night xx
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I don't tuck & .......
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Posted:Oct 18, 2014 12:18 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:16 pm
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Don't ask me where I got that dam title from.. Well I know ok??
Just crawled in to bed in my hotel room and I really dislike when the bed sheets are tucked, it's fucking annoying
I am a definitely a stay warm under the blankets kinda girl when warming up to some foreplay and always forget to untuck before crawling in... Now I know it looks so neat to tuck but when the action starts rolling, that tuck can be your worst nightmare cause your yelling at him to get out of bed to untuck or you just start kicking your feet to hopefully get some leg room but the only thing that does is loosen the corners grrrrr frustrating...
At home I am not a tucker due to the fact that I am a terrible sleeper, I usually end up with all the sheet's and blanket's bunched between my knee's, maybe some kind of security thing (I apologize to all those men I've let in my bed)
Ok that is all I got KICKASS my dear
I got to untuck and get some dam sleep...
Kisses from E4N xx
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Tomorrow I'll blog about sex but today I'm just thankful
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Posted:Oct 13, 2014 10:46 am
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:14 pm
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Today is the first holiday I cook for minus one at the table and of course I think about it and wished my best friend was here to carve the turkey like he has been for the last 15+ years...
So today I concentrate on things I am thankful for but struggle a bit but still smiling around his father cause I know it's a hard day today for him also..
1. I can still cook a mean pot of homemade beans cause it smells delish in this place..
2. First week back at worked sucked the wind right outta me but thankful I still have a great job..
3. Called my beautiful Mom today cause she always tells me the same thing before we disconnect "I love you a whole bunch baby girl", feeling blessed to still have this awesome lady in my life..
4. Received a bunch of texts from my girlfriends saying their thinking of me today, I'm so grateful they stepped up when things got tough and we reconnected..
5. Last I'm grateful for my life, I lived hard for many years but knowing how life precious really is now, I wouldn't change anything..
Today is not a day to be selfish, be thankful and help someone else who's having a tough time, that's the best lesson life has to offer
Hugs from E4N xx
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Is it just me who's lost ??
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Posted:Oct 12, 2014 6:00 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:12 pm
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When exactly is Thanksgiving anyway???
I thought it was tomorrow and rushed home from the south today so I can cook a nice meal for my best friend's father tomorrow but I see "Happy Thanksgiving" all over FB and now I'm confused !!!
Guess I can g-oogle it but I'm too lazy and wouldn't make much of a difference, the meal will still get cooked tomorrow..
Anyway....
Been gone for a week and for some reason I felt guilty being away from home this trip, even though it was mostly a work trip.. But I missed home a lot but as soon as I started getting close, I realize how much I don't miss this place, I only miss the comforts of home
See I told you I was lost, I hope I won't be this lost at Xmas
Whether it's today or tomorrow, Happy Thanksgiving xx
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I've come across a few assholes, this one is the best
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Posted:Oct 4, 2014 7:58 pm
Last Updated:Jan 1, 2015 6:09 pm
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I received a message last week after a blog that was not meant any judgement in any way, anyway this guy from Illinois messaged me about how I can be Daddy's little girl, I didn't respond and just deleted it..
So for the second time he emails me again;
Daddys/little girl does not refer to the ages, real or pretend, of the participants. Nor does it imply closet desires. In my relationship my Dom is not my father, he is nothing like my father, and I have no need for him to replace my father. He is however my Daddy, and does not engage in age play specifically (beyond the occasional school girl fantasy *s*) and the relationship is not based on any need to have sex with . He does have the ability to make me feel like a little girl, however, a much cherished and sometimes needy little girl. It is a feeling that I revel in, it is the safest place I have ever been, and it allows me the freedom to be all that I am without fear of reprisals. Daddy Dom is a feeling, an environment that two people have created. A Daddy Dom is so named because of the qualities he possesses and the service he provides. So, what are these qualities? What is a Daddy Dom? A Daddy Dom wants to be the center of your universe. He wants to be able to provide for your every need and care. But more than that he wants to be able to shape and mold you to the image he thinks you should become. He sees in you someone who can achieve a much higher, much greater status. He believes more in you than you believe in yourself. What he wants in return is to be able to bask in his image of you, the image he has created. To achieve these goals he relies on a combination of love, respect, and discipline. His love for his little girl goes without saying. He loves her as much for who she is as for who she will become with his guidance. She is his prized possession. His eyes light up when she walks into the room and he takes great pride in her successes. After all, he helped to create her. She holds the tenderest part of his heart and has the greatest power to hurt him. This love would not be possible without respect. A Daddy Dom needs to feel pride in his little girl. He needs to know she can hold her own in the outside world and still submit to him. He holds the greatest respect for the gift she has given him and takes great pains to increase its value. It is extremely important to him to know she can be with any man and she chooses to be with him. He knows that this makes discipline a priority in their lives, more important than in some other D/s relationships. In order for the little girl to really trust, she must know he means what he says. If his little girl is going to be the best she can possibly be he must stand firm. He uses his experience in life and his knowledge of her to provide proper direction and punishment when the need arises. If he does not enforce discipline, this respect becomes a tenuous thing. If his submissive finds that she can manipulate him out of punishing her, she begins to lose respect and the ability to empower becomes impeded. He understands that it becomes increasingly difficult to be possessed by someone you do not respect. This takes great strength on his part. It takes strength to control her, and to shape her to his needs and desires. It takes strength to be her confidant, her shoulder, her anchor. It takes strength to let her out into the world when all he wants to do is hold her safe in his arms. And it takes strength to do what is necessary when she needs to be disciplined. A Daddy Dom provides something else that is very important to his submissive...acceptance. She is safe in his arms because he knows her, everything about her, and he still loves her. When she goes to him she knows that this man knows all of her dirty little secrets and it doesn't matter. To him she is beautiful. Daddy Dom and sadistic Dom are by no means mutually exclusive. Many Daddy Doms embrace their sadism while understanding and feeding their submissive's masochism. This balance is necessary to many little girls because it allows all parts of her to be nourished, leading to an incredibly fulfilling relationship. In addition to these practically mandatory characteristics, some couples add their own sadism and masochism to the mix, and may use the concept of the wolf or lion and little lamb to describe the way in which the Daddy simultaneously protects his little girl from the world, and yet wants to dominate and devour her sexually. As a sadist, he may create the very tears that he will later kiss away. Sounds sweet, and yet terrifying, if you are not accustomed to the world of sadomasochism in which these participants operate. But to a Daddy and his girl who are into BDSM, this is the most perfect of scenarios they can imagine to act out their fetish I think most Dominants have a bit of the Daddy in them; taking on the role of male authority figure in the submissive’s life and using their power to enrich that life. Daddy/little girl verbalizes that feeling, and adds a dimension of warmth, caring, and ritual that its participants crave. There is something infinitely magical about a Daddy Dom. Perhaps it is something only a little girl can understand
Now to each their own but these kinds of messages are a bit freaky so I message him back letting him know I am not interested...
He responds;
No wonder your husband dumped your sorry ass...
And blocks me so I couldn't respond, sounds more like a coward to me wouldn't you agree??
Some folks make me sad
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Word of the day
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Posted:Oct 4, 2014 6:14 pm
Last Updated:Oct 11, 2014 5:43 pm
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PROCRASTINATE!!!
I knew I had to leave early tomorrow morning for a 600km trek south and all I have been doing for the last 3 days is sleeping
Now I'm rushing to get packed and everything else ready to go, last minute of course...
I'm nervous to head back to work, I feel different now and not sure how committed I can be.. Work was priority for me for almost 5 years and now after everything I've experienced, I don't think it will be anymore... Doesn't mean I won't give my best but just means I know there's more important things in life and who said you couldn't teach an old hmmmm lady new tricks??
So enough procrastinating, my packing awaits....
Hugs from E4N xx
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He says "you have to open wider"
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Posted:Oct 2, 2014 6:46 pm
Last Updated:Oct 13, 2014 7:08 pm
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Why do I always remember these kinds of things??
So I drove to the city today cause I've been experiencing a bit of a toothache the last few days and figured I better get it taken care of before I head back to work next week..
I'm sure like most of you, I am chicken of the dam dentist and I have the greatest one, someone from here and someone I grew up with so he knows how fragile I am lol
Anyway...
I'm sitting there in the CHAIR with that stupid little pink bib they chain around your neck when he sits on his stool next to me and starts chatting, then says ok let me have a look so I open up.. He insert's a stainless steel pic into my mouth, pokes here and there, has a look around and then orders the hygienist to take a few x-rays...
He comes back 10 minutes later and says your teeth are great, no cavities and everything else looks ok hmmmmm...
So he asks me to open up again and does this tap tap test in there and I flinch when he taps the sensitive one, so he comes in closer for a look and says "you have to open wider"
Now I've heard a lot of things in my 43 years but can't say I have ever heard that before, have you??
Yep I might have to find something to amuse my time cause my mind is way to over active lately, suggestions??
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