Beautiful
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Posted:Aug 8, 2013 6:55 am
Last Updated:Sep 7, 2013 12:12 pm
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You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face
And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel
I have often asked myself the reason for sadness
In a world where tears are just a lullaby
If there's any answer, maybe love can end the madness
Maybe not, oh, but we can only try
You've got to get up every morning with a smile on your face
And show the world all the love in your heart
Then people gonna treat you better
You're gonna find, yes, you will
That you're beautiful as you feel
Carol King
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Will finding a job be like finding a man?
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Posted:Jul 22, 2013 7:26 am
Last Updated:Jul 25, 2013 9:19 am
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Well my 90 day temp to hire job turned into just a 90 day temp job. They did not hire me on. So I have been thinking, Is it easier to fine a job or a boyfriend?
I mean really how hard can this all be? And I want both. A good job that I can be good at, loyal to, spend time at, long term? That is not much different than finding a full time man.....
OY
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Hope springs.....
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Posted:Mar 25, 2013 7:46 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2013 5:39 am
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Well I am fully back in this wonderland called Kansas City. I am also feeling pretty grounded back here. What a crazy year last year was. Home in my comfy little house. Looking for work, doing art and breathing, oh yes I am breathing again and I am doing it quite well!
I could write volumes about Vegas, Capetown and oh yes Hawaii......But that is not going to happen..LOL. What I will say is I had some grand adventures, some beautiful moments with beautiful people and I got to see some of this amazing place called Earth. I learned some things about myself some good some bad....it is what it is.
I still want it all and in the mean time I am having the grandest Love Affair with myself.
Doing my art. Small piece so sell for up coming EarthDay art show!
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I am a standard member again
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Posted:Mar 15, 2013 9:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2013 9:07 am
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Have not been in a place to blog as yet. The winter is just ending here and spring is in full tease!
Only a standard member here. Not sure how the mail works with all that.
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Could not stay still.....
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Posted:Feb 12, 2013 9:49 am
Last Updated:Mar 4, 2013 1:58 pm
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Morning from Maui! Well it seems that I was not meant to stay home through the winter in Missouri. A kind soul in Hawaii invited me to come visit and I took him up on the offer! Kauai is a beautiful Island and my host was a gentleman. Loved his family and the place. Only stayed for a couple of weeks and came to visit freinds on Maui. I could live here.....but I am heading back home on the 18th!
ANd just for the record, I am not gay!
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Home from South Africa!
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Posted:Dec 14, 2012 6:29 am
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2013 11:12 am
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I am home from my travels! It was amazing. The flight from Capetown to London was ok, the 7 hour layover was ok the flight from London to Vegas was brutal. A day and a half with my folks in Vegas and then I flew back to KC. I picked something up on the plane back and I still do not feel so good. It will take a few days to get settled. This picture is of Gordons Bay. So beautiful! Capetown was so beautiful. Will share more when I get it together! Glad to be home again!
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I want it all….
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Posted:Nov 9, 2012 8:49 pm
Last Updated:Sep 10, 2013 6:53 pm
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I want the whole deal. I want the love, the touching; the friendship, the companionship, the vulnerability, the sex, and the commitment. I want the whole fucking deal.
I want to take care of someone and for them to take care of me. I want to be told ey bhaby, it is all going to be ok, even though I know it is. I want someone else to want to tell me that, when I am having a hard time. I want to sit on someone’s lap and just nuzzle in under their arm.
I am going to be 55 years old and I do not want to be by myself as I cruise into these fucking golden years. It is the thing that bothers me the most. It is true. I am a strong adventurous woman, some even say I have world by the balls. I have a youthful spirit, I am creative and loving and vulnerable. I am a perfectly flawed loving human being.
I want to make love to my partner and send them over the top. I want to let go of the passion and give it totally, and receive it back in return. I want the passion. I fucking want it all.
Ya know I have been dating for a couple of years now. I have dated and looked. A friend tells me to stop looking and it will just happen. The universe knows, I have asked for it, I have pleaded for it I have looked for it. I surrender to it. Does not mean I will stop checking people out and looking…..it is normal!
I fucking want it all!
If you want me you have to accept my tears along with it all. If you want my joy you have to have to hold my sorrow, they come together. I am sensitive, empathic, emotional being. I cry when I see road kill and goofy movies. I laugh at the ludicrous and the absurd. I have a warped sense of humor, I can be a fricken airhead, I can be gentle and I can be right down to business. I am stubborn and controlling at times, but I can let it all go too. I struggle at times to keep it together because I see all the injustice in the world and feel total loss what to do about it. I do a pretty good job of taking care of myself. I stand tall to the world and take it on.
I treat people with love, kindness, tolerance and compassion. This is hard world at times.
I bubble up. Keep it all inside and do the best I fucking can. I do my best to live in the day and to see the wonders that are all around me. I breathe in and out…in and out….. I am grateful for all the grace I have in my life.
I fucking want it all..
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Barbie in a box
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Posted:Nov 8, 2012 6:54 am
Last Updated:Apr 11, 2013 6:16 am
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This is my Barbie in a box. I found her in a bag full of other dolls that I had bought. It was a total score. Her head was not attached and my roommate and I screwed it back on. So now she is safe in the box with the glass front. She is not going to be an art piece or incorporated into one, she is already pretty cool the way she is.
Unlike Barbie I cannot stay in a glass box. I take risks in opening myself up to meeting people and doing things. I make mistakes along the way and learn from it, most of the time.
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Do I let you in?
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Posted:Oct 25, 2012 12:27 pm
Last Updated:Dec 14, 2012 2:42 am
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Somebody I just started conversing with on a different site than this one (I would call that site vanilla) asked if I had big plans for this weekend. I realized that he might be a bit more conservative than I, in lots of ways. Maybe sexually,maybe spiritually or politically or something. So I answered with the following:
“ It is a ritual weekend Samhain (Halloween) out at this spiritual camp I am involved with. Big pot luck dinner and treats with the , costume party. The theme is "Day of the Dead" and my roommate and I have created some creative pieces to decorate the cabin we sponsor. Like I said I am an eclectic person....lol. I am not some air head new ager; I am an open minded person who believes in the universe and spirit. I am a classy hippy…lol. This might be too much information; I just want you to know who I am.”
This got me thinking about this online dating and meeting people and the question of “who do I let in”. Now VisionPersonals.com is all over the place to start. Has everybody from A-Z. I feel that it already affords me more leeway than the vanilla site. I blog here, so I guess I am more real on here. Does the person I go out with or date have to believe in what I do? No they don’t, but there are things I feel pretty strongly about that would be a deal breaker right off for me. Do I tell them in a past life I was into some out of the box things? That I am not a "milk toast" kinda girl. You know some people when you share things just asume things about you...should I even care. I can shut them down pretty fast. I think I am a classy wonderful person. I want to be treated with respect no matter what.
I am just tripping and thinking about things…..
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It is good to be...
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Posted:Oct 22, 2012 8:00 pm
Last Updated:Jan 18, 2013 7:20 am
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When I woke this morning I was a bit raw, emotionally raw. No clue why, just was. I got busy and did some organizing of the studio, boxes on walls, cut some wood, painted some monkey wings, did some laundry and got outside my head. All is good.
I am talking to a few guys and hope to meet them and see if there is a connection. I would like it, I would really like it.
Next weekend is Samhain out at camp (Halloween). Been doing some very cool creative things. The ritual is along the lines of "Day of the Dead" and honoring our ancestors. The imagery is amazing for the Day of the Dead. My friend had this really odd painting of these 2 . It was creepy all on its own. I painted them like sugar sculls you see for Day of the Dead. Enjoy!...hahahahah
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go go girl....
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Posted:Oct 14, 2012 11:11 am
Last Updated:Aug 16, 2013 4:44 am
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and she was so cute!!!
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