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Well, I don't know if that was such a smart title but what the hell... I am not really sure where to begin or where this blog will take me.
I guess I should start with a little more about myself than I put on my profile. I like to put my thoughts to paper so to speak and at times I a sure I will offend. But I don't really care, opinions are like assholes and everyone has one.
With that said I welcome any and all comments just remember that I have the right to return comment and most likely will.
I have been told that I am passionate, quirky, loving and funny and oh yeah moody. Am I well to find out you will have to get to know me. I am real and if you don't think so well then move on sucka your wasting me time. Alot of the times my blogs will be about my life activities, especially sex but occasionally I may blog about something like I don't know erotica. I am a very sexual person and I am not ashamed of that, if I were why would I be on "The World's Largest Sex..." you get the picture. Oh and also, although I don't know why I am wasting my time because the assholes usually don't read blogs, but if I am not interested that means I AM NOT INTERESTED!!!!
I look forward to meeting some fun people here and hope i won't be disappointed.
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Posted:Jan 3, 2014 8:21 pm
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2014 8:30 pm
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I was having issues with car so I text an old b/f and asked his advise.
He called around, not being familiar with my make of car and found out what the issue could possibly be. Transmission yeehaw! FUCK!!!
I stayed in my room that night b/f was exhausted and worked til 8 that night and Boy toy's plans for a 3 sum feel through.
While I was laying in bed stressing about my car. JT (old b/f) text me. He asked how I was doing and I told him, I was stressing. He assured me he would help me out. It didn't help, but he tried. A few mins later I get a text from him with an attachment. It said I love you. I respond back, awww I love you too. That is the first time he has ever said that! I told him he will always hold a special place in my black heart...
The next day he came to my room, not satisfied that I was ok because of my car. We took it out and drove it, he was able to diagnose the issue which didn't help my stress any. But he did ensure me if I broke down he would come get me and make sure I got home.
I think I must make some good choices in men sometime!
He convinced me that he had a great stress reliever. Hahaha of course it was sex! If you are keeping count he would be # 4 lol!
I had no intentions of fucking anyone except for b/f on this trip and this was becoming quite an adventure!
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My boy toy's back, well sorta and other parts of my trip
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Posted:Jan 2, 2014 11:15 am
Last Updated:Jan 2, 2014 11:16 am
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This is part one of a series of blogs. It will take a few to blog about my visit back to Colorado.
While driving back to Colorado I had a crazy thought.
I text boytoy, yes the one who broke my heart... I told him I would like to see him while I was in town. Figured, what the hell... What's the worst that can happen, he can ignore me right?
WRONG! He sent me a text back, excited to see me. Acted like nothing had changed between us... But of course it did...
When I got into town I met up with him, had fun... Ok, I did something I had never done. We had sex in a parking lot! Don't think it didn't go through my head about getting arrested!
That night I went to a party with my bestie. We had fun but the party was a bit of a dud... We were invited to a room party and that was not much better than the main party so we went back to our room and had our own party.
The following day I checked into my room and had my second encounter. Not with boy toy but someone who if I were still living in Colorado he could certainly give him competition! I had been talking to him since before I moved to Kansas and he is one of my regular blog readers. Meeting him was not planned and I was a bit anxious he would either not show or not be interested.
When I opened to the door to my room, I pleasantly surprised! His pic did him no justice! His eyes and his smile! OMG I wanted to tear his clothes off before I shut the door! I think his shirt was half off before it closed.
Prior to meeting he had said to not have high expectations of him. WOW he had nothing to worry about. I soaked the bed and he went for much longer than anticipated! I had dinner plans but didn't want to let him leave... Would have loved to go a second round with him! I do hope to see him again when I go back to Colorado!
The following day I was with boy toy during the day and again had mind blowing sex! He definitely made up for being an ass. He was attentive and made sure my needs were met! We had more sex that day then we had in a few months! I don't know if I will see him again but at least I did get to have one more time with him.
That night I saw my b/f... We are obviously not exclusive but when I am in Colorado he is my priority. We stayed in that night and just had some fun.  He is actually restoring my faith just a little in the male species. Time will tell how much he can!
He has been nothing but honest with me and I am still having trouble believing him and trusting him wholeheartedly. The more time I spend with him the happier I am. He is the same guy I mentioned in a few blogs. When I am with him I am happy and feel safe. That says something!
There will be more to say about him later on...
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Why is it???
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Posted:Dec 27, 2013 12:05 pm
Last Updated:Jan 4, 2014 10:53 am
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Why is it the men I encounter seem to think I want more than sex???
I rarely contact you, when I do I want to see you to fuck my brains out...
If I want to see you after the first time, consider yourself lucky! That means you did something for me that I enjoyed.
Do the men I encounter really have that big of egos that they think I would fall in love with them?
Don't any of you pay attention? I was with boy toy for over a year and when he proposed us moving in together I damn near had a heart attack!
Why is it some people have issues with separating the emotion passion from love? I have been on this site for over 6 yrs and have only had feelings for one person... That same person I saw/played with for a year and half! While meeting and playing with others!
I am a hopeless romantic at heart but don't forget the hard jaded shell on the outside! It runs deep!
When I say I can't wait to see you its because I just soaked the bed through the comforter down to the mattress no other reason.
I am seriously thinking of deactivating my account. Maybe when I come back guys will have pulled their heads out of their asses!
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Average penis...
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Posted:Dec 24, 2013 8:57 am
Last Updated:Dec 24, 2013 9:01 pm
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A new study determines that most penises are smaller than we think.
This is science because researchers took matters into their own hands (literally). Men were not given the option of measuring their members alone in their bedrooms. Instead, the 300 men studied allowed a doctor to supervise and then measure their erections.
The result: only 1 in 5 men surpasses 5 to 7 inches when erect and 1 in 1,000 reaches 9 inches. I repeat, only 1 in every 1,000 men is 9 inches when hard. The average erect penis size is 5.8 inches. If you are underwhelmed — don't be. The study makes it very clear that 5.8 inches is way bigger than most other primates' erections, such as a gorilla erection.
Another study showed the average penis size to be 5.7 inches...
This could be a real eye opener to many! Some men may need to go back and edit their profiles!
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Christmas Traditions
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Posted:Dec 22, 2013 10:57 am
Last Updated:Dec 24, 2013 9:06 am
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While baking cookies and listening to Christmas music, I was reminded of my childhood Christmas'
Growing up my parents went all out with Christmas decorating and festivities.
I remember going out as a family and choosing a tree. Somehow we always chose the coldest snowiest day to go and we would chose the tallest damn tree we could find. My father would wind up cutting part of it off. They also put up decorations outside, lights, a manger scene, and Santa with reindeer.
When I was older we would travel to visit my Mom for Christmas and visit my family. She passed in '99 and 2000 was one of the hardest years to celebrate.
Fast forward to ten years later. I went into couples counseling with my now ex to find out if we could make it. ( We didn't). But she had some very interesting, sage advise.
She advised me I was difficult to be around and hated the holidays because I mourning the loss of my parents and the traditions we had.
She suggested we start our own traditions. We did, one year we went skiing,and had a non Christmas, or at least tried... (we were not going to introduce my youngest to the whole Santa thing but the resort Santa came to visit our room with gifts.. And of course society talking to him about Santa kinda threw that idea out the window). Another year we had a tacky Christmas with godawful ugly tree and ornaments! My and I had fun! We did start a yearly tradition of going to look at Christmas lights each Christmas eve.
This year I am blessed to spend it with my and my in law, along with my . So far this Christmas season has been one full of firsts. The obvious one, my first year in Kansas, my and her wife's first Christmas together as a LEGALLY married couple, our puppies first Christmas and his first snow. Its also the first time my in law drove in a foot of snow, she did great!
I still find myself trying to subconsciously sabotage the holiday and make myself miserable...
Has anyone else found themselves doing this? Do you have certain traditions that you carry on from you childhood? Did you start any new traditions when you came of age and were on your own?
Happy Holidays everyone! Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, Happy whatever you celebrate. May it be a joyous time.
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Posted:Dec 16, 2013 2:32 pm
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Along with my strange weekend I also learned that in this area many people have met.
While chatting with my play-date on Sat night I learned he knows many of the people I have been chatting with, or have met. He had even met the couple I went to the game with. (gave them good ratings too lol!)
Then when I met the couple I learned they too know or have chatted with many of the same people!
Some of the opinions positive,others were negative but I choose to meet and make my own opinions. Also, I was rather quiet with some of
my thoughts of said people, some of my thoughts would have conflicted with theirs so best to keep quiet. Although if I agreed I don't know if I would have said so. Aside from the fact I don't like to talk about people, I think everyone should form their own opinions with out the bias of others. Nor would I go back to the mutual acquaintances and repeat what was said to me. As I have said many times before, I don't do drama, and that would definitely cause some discourse let alone possibly hurt someone's feelings.
Also, hearing what they had to say gave me another's perspective on the subjects. It was interesting to say the least.
It also made me wonder what people must say about me... I don't really care what people think of me as long as they don't smile in my face then stab me in the back. I'm just funny that way, despise fakes...
Has anyone else had this experience? Where so many people in the lifestyle know each other?
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What a long strange trip its been
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Posted:Dec 15, 2013 7:08 pm
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2013 2:00 pm
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Well it was just a weekend lol...
It started out fairly normal, worked day job, went to night job worked til almost mid night. Had to get up at 5 to get to job by 6. Wound up working later than expected. Store was getting slammed.
I get a cryptic text from someone and cannot really react or respond because I'm at work.
So I leave work more confused than I was before this text. It was from someone whom I thought would be a mind blowing regular playmate. But learned otherwise.
I wound up going on an impromptu meet and stayed the night. Thanks Oz I need that! Although could use more sleep! LOL
I baked 8 dozen cookies for a work function then headed out to the college town to meet a nice couple and go to a basketball game with them.
While at the game I received a text from a lover in Colorado. To understand the oddity of the conversation I must first give you some back round information...
My friend calls him psycho, not because he is a Norman Bates type but because he is so afraid of a commitment that he shuts himself off to many pleasures.
Here is what I mean, I have known him for 4 years, we didn't have sex for 3 of those years because he was worried about me falling for him... I know right, BAHHAHAHA
Whew, ok so basically all we have done is fucked. And I mean bend over stick it in, get off, get dressed. Boring yes but OMG he does have a nice package and knows how to use it.
Now to the weirdness... He text me tonight asking me how I felt about taking our sex to another level. I of course asked what he meant, I mean we live in different states and I am not sexting or having phone sex. He said what about kissing and oral, etc? I had to look at my phone 2x and show my friend what he wrote just to make sure I was reading it correctly! This came from a man who was too afraid to fuck me for 3 yrs! So without any sarcasm I told him I think its a great idea. Of course he said he is worried about the ramifications of our actions, (my words not his of course).
I told him its physical not emotional and it will be fine. I would love to take a step in that direction.
I go back to Colorado to visit after Christmas, we will see if this pans out.
The other strange thing that happened was a guy that I am casually dating. Casually because again we are in different states, called me and mentioned he missed me.
I told him, "I miss you too."
He said, "I've been thinking a lot about you."
Me: "OK what about?"
Him: "How I feel when I spend time with you. You are always on my
my mind."
Me: "I think about you too..." (and how great the sex is...)
Him quot;I know we live far apart now but I would like to see where things
can go between us. I want to come out this spring and spend time
with you."
Me: "Ok sounds like a plan."
Him: "I haven't been with anyone since I last saw you. I want to meet your and and if it works out I will start looking for
work out there." (he has talked to my on the phone...)
Me: Thinking holy shit STOP THE PRESSES! I say, "OK we will see what
happens..."
Now if you haven't been keeping track of my blogs then you wouldn't know that this is the guy I wrote about in "Breaking up is Hard to Do"
He is the guy that came back into my life the same time boy toy unceremoniously dumped my ass! The guy I was worried about rebounding on. When I am with him I am happy and feel safe. I don't feel the insecurities I do with some of the others I have been with. But any semblance of a relationship???? Ummm I don't know.
I didn't volunteer any information about my sexploitations since moving to Kansas and don't plan on it. I did tell him that I am meeting people. He knows what this means and is OK with it, he knows I have a high sex drive and there is no way in hell I am waiting two months until I can see him again.
So my friends there is my strange trip, er weekend.
Hope your weekend was fun filled and joyous!
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Finding what I want
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Posted:Dec 13, 2013 12:43 pm
Last Updated:Dec 16, 2013 2:02 pm
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I think I finally figured out what it is I want from this site now just trying to figure out how to post it in my profile.
So this will be the first draft...
Looks are not important as other factors.
I want someone whom I have sexual and intellectual chemistry. He must blow my mind every time we are together. Love to kiss, and sensual touch. I want to get wet and excited just thinking about seeing him again.
Our sessions need to be longer than 20 minutes and passionate. I want someone that can go for a time, get off then be able to cuddle and touch until we are ready to go again. ( I am not against 5 hours play sessions). When we are done, he should be or at least show remorse for our parting. ( I mean just unhappy our playtime has to end, not that he is so enamored with me he can't stand to leave...)
Someone who is available at least once a week! More would be great! Not a flake. He should make me feel like I am his #1 and he looks forward to our trysts. He keeps his other encounters discrete. When we meet we can hardly stand to keep our hands off each other. And he needs to understand that my behavior is stemming from my sexual needs and nothing else. I'm not against something more than a play thing but that is a far reach from what I want right now.
I know some are saying I have lost my mind. This person doesn't exist and to a point I slightly agree. But I do know that I have found the majority of these qualities in a few men in the past so all is not lost.
Oh ya... I would like to find two such men. I know hahaha fat chance of that but you never know!
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Lingering Feelings
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Posted:Dec 10, 2013 6:05 pm
Last Updated:Dec 10, 2013 8:26 pm
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As the days pass I think the feelings will finally go away and subside but they still manage to creep into my thoughts.
Something as simple as seeing someone that may resemble you or hear something that reminds me of you.
Will this feeling ever go away? Yes... It will in time but only with time... I can see others and enjoy them in the bedroom but it will only be a temporary fix, for when I am alone you creep back in once again.
I miss our rendezvous, the times we spent together whether for lunch or all night. I vividly remember the night you said you wanted to take our situation to the next level... The shock and happiness I was feeling. And yes the fear of the inevitable... the end
In my heart I know it is for the best but that still doesn't make it any easier. Until this moment I don't think I fully realized the extent of my grief or lack of getting over it... Some days are easier than others, (distractions...) I look forward to the day I can look back and say..."Ya he was fun!", and not feel the emptiness I do right now.
I often find myself wondering what you are doing or if I contacted you would you respond or ignore me. Either way I am sure it would end poorly.
You have made your decision and I must abide by it no matter how much it still hurts...
I am strong but sometimes feel as vulnerable as a newborn...
The big question is how to handle such grief... Go out and have a fuck fest? Wallow for a bit? Throw myself into work again? I am not sure there is a right or wrong answer to this question...
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I am deleting my account...
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Posted:Dec 2, 2013 12:01 pm
Last Updated:Dec 15, 2013 6:30 pm
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Have you ever heard someone you met say that? Was it because they were unhappy with the site, or they met someone who met their needs and gives them what they want?
Has someone ever told you they are deactivating their account because of you? They are happy with what they get from you? If so, how did it make you feel? Happy, freaked out, relieved?
I know from past experiences that different men think or want different things. Some want to know about your encounters with others, while some don't want you with someone else, or don't want to know...
I am considering deactivating my account. I had thought about it in the past when I was boy toy but of course he is in the past. But lately my encounters have been less than stellar, sans a few exceptions, (whom I have difficulty seeing again). And of course I have met someone whom I would certainly lock in my closet if it were possible.
Don't assume its anything more than sex... This is where many make a mistake. I feel you can have mind blowing sex and still be free to do and explore other things. Basically a no strings attached relationship.
He would definitely be part of the reason I did deactivate.
I have had guys freak out and think I was developing feelings other than lust before and this makes me gun shy about sharing anything with one guy...
So guys and girls, what would you do if someone said they were deactivating their account and you were the main reason? Would you assume that they were getting serious, or they were just happy with what they have with you and possibly another?
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Death of a dildo
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Posted:Nov 28, 2013 10:31 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2013 1:29 am
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I spent the night last night with a potential and brought my toys... One of these toys is a nice sized/thick black dildo that fit nicely into my strap on harness.
I acquired these from a former playmate who is into some serious ass play. And I sometimes think he may have given them to me for safe keeping... That was 6 yrs ago... LOL
Anyway fast forward to this morning. I get home throw my bag of goodies in my closet, don't close the closet door all the way, let the puppy out and jump in the shower.
I get dressed let the puppy in, and jump on computer to check mail... Hmmm that is awfully quiet... Oh ok he is playing with something, better make sure he didn't get ahold of the kitten. Oh now the kitten is fine. But my beautiful black dildo is not! after chasing him through the house and finally getting him to drop it I hope, " I can wash it off and it will be ok..." NOOOOOOOOOO, he chewed the head damn near off and there are chunks taken out of the shaft. 
Soooo RIP my fine black, pliable friend! I will replace you one day...
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Pleasantly surprised
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Posted:Nov 19, 2013 10:04 am
Last Updated:Nov 19, 2013 3:12 pm
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A week or so ago I met a guy with whom I have been chatting for a bit from here.
He suggested we get a room and meet. Well as you know I do have a rule about meeting. That is, meet in public. Its not only for my safety its also a way to give a guy an easy out...
There was no need for that this night.
He opened the door to the room and I could tell he was a bit nervous, I was too! Meeting for the first time, etc. He was not what I expected either, but that was a good thing. To tell you the truth I don't know what I really expected. I had seen pics of him but as we all know ppl post fakes. He looked very young and innocent! Ok he is YOUNG but far from innocent!
We sat on the bed and he started talking asking me things about myself. I was thinking, "OMG I don't want small talk! Get too close, too easy to get attached..." I prefer to keep things at a distance but it was difficult to do with him so, I answered his questions and made the first move.
When we had chatted I mentioned the first time being awkward and he said, "It doesn't have to be, it can be sensual."
I thought, "ya right!"
Well was I mistaken! Being with him was nothing short of amazing! The sex was sensual, and it seemed to just flow. Almost as if he were in my head and knew what to do next and I in his... I was blown away by the fluidity and intimacy of the encounter. I didn't want it to end! With every kiss I would melt and feel willing to give myself to him again and again.
He could very well be my next boy toy. Sans the bullshit of course! I am sure there are other things he is interested in exploring and I would be more than happy to try and accommodate within reason of course. 
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My visit back to Colorado
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Posted:Oct 23, 2013 12:25 pm
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So my visit wasn't exactly what I planned but then there is a reason I never plan anything!
As you already know boy toy and I broke up. That was a real nose dive to say the least. And of course I made it through with the help of my friends. You learn who your friends are when you lost half of yourself!
I was able to have some fun with boy toy prior to break up and it was a precursor to what was to happen the next day. So retail therapy was just what I needed. That night I hooked up with another regular I left behind but he just wasn't doing it for me. I was feeling vulnerable and he couldn't pick up on that. Soooo get dressed and get out was in order for him.
The next night was special because I was reconnecting with a guy I met shortly before moving to Kansas. We lost touch and me being me, wrote him off and deleted his number.
Oddly enough I met him from this site and well, we seem to be leaning to more than just a sex thing, we really connected when we met and were talking about more than sex at that time, we will see.
Our date was wonderful, dinner and back to my room. HE seemed to know what I needed and how to take care of me. Although I think it was more the way he is than realizing how vulnerable I was feeling. He is a true gentleman I would have to say a bit out of place on this site. But nonetheless I am glad we reconnected and are working on seeing each other again when I come back out in Dec/Jan.
Thankfully, Miss Lessant, my bestie knew just what I needed to keep me from falling into a funk. When I got to her place she welcomed me with open arms and an idea for a Halloween Costume. I don't usually dress up unless I plan for it months in advance.
But somehow she knew this is just what I needed. Off we went to several stores to put our outfits together and chat about my broken heart and the party at hand. The girl knows how to cheer me up!
We went to the party it was somewhat early and quiet, and vanilla, but I was definitely ok with that! We had a few drinks chatted with some folks and then a friend of hers kidnapped us and took us to another party. It was someplace in South Denver, I have no idea where I was and I just put my trust in my bestie to keep me safe.
OMG this party was huge! The hosts went all out the entire house was decorated for Halloween. I would have to say over 100 ppl were there at this house party! Again it was not a lifestyle party but there were certainly a rainbow assortment of people and costumes in attendance. I chatted, drank, danced, flirted with men and women and just had fun! The friend who kidnapped us was gracious and came to check on me from time to time in the beginning then he stayed by my side. It was nice to know that someone still found me attractive. Yes a break up will tear you down! When it was time to go we drove my bestie and her fwb back to the club to get her car. I was entrusted in puppet masters hands and we stayed at the club for another hour or so. We didn't hook up partially due to hosting issues but I don't think either of us was ready to have just mindless one night stand sex. We talked candidly and seemed to hit it off. Will I see him again? I don't know but I do hope so, if for nothing other than a new friendship.
I am planning another trip the end of Dec but this time I have no assumptions of what I will do or who I will see. Except of course my bestie! The two guys will have an opportunity to spend time with me if they so choose. Ok I will be honest... I LOOK forward to seeing them both again!!!
Til next time friends.
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