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Fun times, crazy places and all the things i get up to unsupervised!
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Lost
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Posted:Apr 8, 2014 6:42 pm
Last Updated:Apr 8, 2014 9:11 pm
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I've lost loved ones before. Some sudden and unexpected. Others at the end of a lot of pain and suffering. Each time its hurt, deeply. But this.... this has gutted me.
Its like the sun isn't as bright any more, the stars don't sparkle. Food tastes bland, smells have lost their punch. I'm in a fog and every time I think I'm starting to see my way through it I'm back in the thick of it again.
This is why I don't believe in god. Why I refuse to give my life meaning only through some powerful being who is supposed to have created us.
Some days life really sucks.
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Writers block
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Posted:Apr 6, 2014 8:39 pm
Last Updated:Apr 6, 2014 11:37 pm
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So I'm writing a book... an autobiography actually.
Should be easy right? Its not like anyone knows the subject matter better then me. But no... I have writers block. I was doing so well too!!!
So I'm pondering what I can do to move on from this point and my email inbox dings... ahhh let the procrastination begin.
Its been 3 hours and you guessed.... still procrastinating 
I've even come up with a check list of things I can do before I try to write again:
1. Reply to emails
2. Washing
3. Pack the dishwasher
4. Take new photos
5. Dye my hair......
And the longer I think the worse it gets..... oh well on to number 3!!
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Possessed
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Posted:Apr 4, 2014 7:45 pm
Last Updated:Apr 8, 2014 3:04 am
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My car is possessed.
I'm not entirely sure why it has suddenly decided to become a minion of evil but I'm leaning towards the bio fuel in its almost 15 yr old engine.
I'm driving home today and suddenly it loses power.... not normally a problem, smallish town not too much traffic... except of course for right now, when there is an huge truck right behind me and no room on the edge to just pull off until my car wants to work right again.... I managed to turn into a driveway and sat there swearing (loudly and repeatedly) for a few minutes.
Then suddenly there is a tap at my window (like i needed anything else to scare the wits out of me!!). Its the truck driver. He has pulled over a little ways down and walked down to see if I'm ok. He said he noticed that my car was acting weirdly (his words) and wanted to make sure it was mechanically the car and not physically the driver that was the cause.
See there are still nice people around after all!!
And yes my car as an appointment with the mechanic to work out what the heck is wrong with it and hopefully fix it fast!
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The things we do for sex
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Posted:Apr 3, 2014 5:28 am
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2014 10:12 pm
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So I recently started going to the gym after a break of over 2 years. I was certainly surprised and delighted to know I remember how all the machines work, I was even right about how much I use to dislike some of them.
I have discovered though I can enjoy pain to a degree in certain contexts I am NOT a fan of pain caused from sweating and stretching and lifting and running and riding and climbing (stupid step machines). But most of all I am not a fan of the pain I caused myself at the gym today.
Let me set the scene, 2 minutes into what is a 5 minute session on a ski/step machine and in walks a god. No joke, sexy tousled hair, bright green eyes, and a body built for sin. I'm staring (and probably drooling) in the mirror at this guy when i finish my set and hop off the machine.... and fall to the ground in a completely ungraceful heap!
I caught my foot as I stepped down and with no where to put it and momentum carrying me forward I landed on my knees, sweaty, red faced and dying from embarrassment right at the feet of said God.....
I now have a bruise on my leg, skin off my knees and hands and the memory of his pitying smile as he helped me to my feet. Dare I even show my face at the gym again? Of course.... watching him work out made the rest of my circuit feel like it flew by 
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