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Posted:May 1, 2015 9:04 am
Last Updated:May 2, 2015 4:27 am
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summer is almost upon us
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feeling trapped
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Posted:Apr 30, 2015 2:50 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 9:09 am
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I found this fantastic image when I searched the word trapped. it shows exactly how I feel. I think it explains it better than I ever could..
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a truly heroic act
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Posted:Apr 30, 2015 2:44 am
Last Updated:May 5, 2015 7:18 am
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I am going to go ahead and post what I planned on for ya know, people can grieve and long for things for many reasons, divorce being one of them. This is for anybody who may need alitte reminding like I did. I have shortened it a bit though.
May it be a blessing to you, like it was for me.
Being fully alive is truly a heroic act...
Many of us think heroism means rescuing people from a burning building or a soldier saving his fellow man, these are heroic acts that is true, but in all actuality heroism is an everyday thing. For some getting up out of bed and facing the day is an heroic act.
Sometimes changing jobs or staying in a relationship or trying to make ends met or facing the loss of a loved one is an heroic act..
We have many chances to be heroes in our everyday lives.
The heroism of which I speak is the courage to be fully alive to life regardless of our circumstances..
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where love sweet love
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Posted:Apr 30, 2015 2:39 am
Last Updated:May 5, 2015 7:34 am
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To spare oneself from grief at all cost can be achieved only at the price of total detachment,
which excludes the ability to experience happiness.
---Erich Fromm
So many times I have pulled away and surrounded myself with walls to avoid being hurt.
I believe it's human nature to do that, to a certain extent I believe it is a very healthy to do as well.
As I have said before we can grieve so many different things, like me deaths of family members or a relationship..
No matter what caused the mourning, the grief it all leads to the same place and time.
A place and time where we have to decide if we are going to keep sparing ourselves the chance of pain, to continue not feeling anything at all, or return ourselves to being human, to being truly alive, where we must risk heartache and grief once again.. when we must tear our walls back down and allow ourselves to be close to others once again.
I am not ready to do this yet.. but
My wish is that today will be the day that some of you tear down those walls and return to the land of the living where love sweet love is waiting for you.
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thughts part 2 the ending......
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 7:40 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 6:21 am
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Just remembering,
becoming lost in my memory of, you and me.
My body remembers every touch,
every giggle,
every moan
and every scream... we made that night.
I giggle as I think of you lying in the wet spot for the first time that night.
I still try to resist this
but I can't.
The feelings of desire and pain.
Of grief and joy are overwhelming me, will this memory forever haunt me......
I grab my tanning oil, it's so hot from the heat of the sun now.. slowly I begin to imagine,
imagine that it is you once again touching me, pleasing me.
Tears are beginning to pool within my eyes, now.
I take my finger and drag it through my oil,
I begin tracing,
the outline of my face, like you did that night
I moan as I touch my lips and gently outline, caress them with my fingertip just like you,
I can feel the roughness of your fingers...
Shivers run up and down my spine, you always did remember how sensitive my lips were
Playfully I lick my finger, you like when I do that....
I can hear that song we heard as we explored our new found discovery of pain and pleasure combined.
So fitting it was.
The light, the heat in your eyes....
My heart aches as I remember,
my honey pot is beginning to awaken now. I can feel the wetness escaping from within it.
I drag my fingers down my neck and gently grab a hold of it, like you, you knew how I like that.
I gasp again. A sob escapes from deep within my soul.
I miss you so,
Now I'm cupping my my exposed breasts from the sides,
I extend my fingers so I can tickle my nipples rub the oil into them.
The wind blows and increases the pleasure of it.
I slide down further into my lawn chair now,
I place my feet on the ground
relax my legs and allow them to spread open, I fold down my bikini bottom so its just a patch barely covering me
I lie there remembering how much you liked me doing that, how as people walked by they would gaze down upon me lyying there, bare breasted, so exposed... I wish you still found pride in me belonging to you like on that day, that night....
The tears are flowing easily now, running down my cheeks, down my neck pooling on my chest.
I can see that look in your eyes
I remember now how you looked right through me,
how we never broke our gaze,
I saw through you that night.... I saw your soul, for the first and last time.
I think my heart is breaking in two I wanna stop but my body is screaming at me now touch me I wanna feel that way again.
I wanna explode that way again....
I return to my lips and outline them again,
I let me finger find its way down my body down to my honey pot now.
It's so wet now,
from the memory of you
from the rays of the sun...
gently I touch myself.
I feel it,
its so hard so erect ...
It's begging for the caresses of your lips, your finger....
Slowly I began to rub,
round and round my clitty my finger goes,
my bikini is becoming soaked from my juices, from my sweat.... from thinking of you and me that night.
I cup my breasts again
I lift them to my waiting tongue
hungrily I lick them....
gently I suck them...
I close my eyes and see
you between my legs,
your fingers deep within me ,
slowly going in and out
pleasuring me.
I can see the hunger in your eyes.
I grab your hair and guide you to my secret place, you know what I want, lick me..
but you don't, you make me wait...
Your tongue's pressing firmly upon my hard wet clit now..
you start taking that tongue of yours and go round and round it, I can feel it plumping up even more.
How my mouth longs to kiss you,
to taste you
to take you completely within in it.
I wanna feel you glide across my lips,
my tongue..
for you to touch the back of my throat....
I place one of my fingers in my mouth again, and imagine its you, mmmmm you taste so good, how wonderful you feel as you glide across my tongue my lips...
Volts of electricity seem to flow between my lips and pussy now...bringing it to life even more
Quickly I return to my honey pot,
I slip my hands down deep within my bottoms now.
I can feel my flesh it's hot, soaking wet.
I grab a hold of my hard clitty and pinch it gently between my two fingers...
I pinch hard then softer.
I gently tug it
stroke it, like you do.
chills of pleasure and pain run up and down my body now.
I can hear my own moans of pleasure.
I can hear echos of your pleasure too.
My nipples are so hard,
so alive.
I can feel the heat from the sun it feels like your moist hot breath.
MY pulse races,
remembering you.. remembering your touch.
I close my eyes again and see you, me
I wanna feel you again like I did that night
but I cant... my soul cries out, but my desire to cum has over taken me.
How my body remembers you entering me, so slowly
so forcefully,
Going in and out so slowly, banging me yet so hard...at the end of each stroke.
MY pussy is throbbing begging for you to fill it.
I spread my legs even further, you like when I do that don't you.
I see that look again
the light, the heat
the fury of your passion for me,
Your going deeply within my pussy now
I've went back to rubbing now
faster and faster I make my fingers go.
The tears flow,
my heart aches for you.
I'm completely lost to my memory,
a growling sound escapes from the back of my throat..
I slow down
I feel it coming
round and round my clitty my finger goes...
it begins to throb
to squeeze.
I close my legs together tightly
Waves of pleasure ripple over me again and again.
I feel my juices gushing out,
my pussy is squeezing harder now, faster now.
I rub fast now, I want to keep cumming.
I need to keep cumming.
I wanna stay in my memory...
but,
that feeling overtakes me,
that empty feeling,
that longing for it to be you and me,
that night again.
I stop now
and begin to grieve all over again.......
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thoughts of you part one
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 7:04 am
Last Updated:Apr 29, 2015 7:16 am
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these are some of the things that may never return.......this also a repost from many years ago....
I knew I shouldn't of but, I did anyways.
I laid there in the sun thinking of you.....
Aching, for you.
I even put on your favorite bikini ,the purple one that you bought me on our trip to Miami.
I really shouldn't of done that,it reminds me of you watching me.
Do you remember how, when wet, it exposed my large dark aroused nipples for all the world to see?
Do you remember when I finally got my nerve up to take it off and lay there exposed??
I do. I can still feel the rays of the sun changing the color of my skin, feel the warm salty breeze as it swept over me, caressing me, making me feel so alive.
How good your calloused hands made me feel when you rubbed tanning oil all over my exposed skin.
I can still remember how it felt to be watched.....by you, by others. I can still see, feel the pleasure it caused you too.
Do you remember that night??
I always have to catch my breath when I think of it. How excited I become, how wet, how hard , I still get after all these years when I think about it.
I long to go back to that.
The night when you skillfully, carefully applied the aloe vera on my sun burnt skin....my sun burnt breasts..... your strong hands being so gentle with me....
I can close my eyes and my body recalls every minute of it, I can feel you tracing the out line of my nipples with your fingertips, teasing them as you apply my comfort.
How intriguing and erotic the sensation of pain and pleasure combined....
How we left the curtains wide open so anyone in the building next door could watch if they wanted to. Did anyone...A little moan escapes from deep within me as I remember...
I shouldn't of done this today, I laid there battling my thoughts of you. I don't wont to remember how you feel, How you made me feel that night.
But
I fail miserably.
I fall to the temptation.
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10 second vacation....
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 6:48 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 6:22 am
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I close my eyes
I am there,
I can feel the wind,
Smell the sea,
Feel the sand,
My skin is warming from the rays of the sun.....
I can feel my lovers arms as he embraces me.....
Thought I'd try and help get your mind off the cold out there today if only for a second.
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for my love
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 6:42 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 6:24 am
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my love is my husband, yes he reads my blog.......
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I need to find new dreams....no turning back.
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 6:27 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 6:26 am
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this was written prestroke, no wonder I am so bummed.... will never work again... so this will never happen, I need to find new dreams....
wanna runway,
pack my bags
walk away and never look back....
I wanna go where know one knows me,
my past, my weaknesses.
Where no one can push my buttons
hurt me
disappointment me
suffocate my dreams
frustrate me
till i just wanna scream.
Oneday the time will come I will fight back !!!!!
I wanna hide from myself,
my life,
all the pain I have inside.
I just wanna forget my life
close my eyes
and breath
love and be loved
respect
and be respected.
Where compromise exists..
Oneday all my fears will be put aside !!!!
I wanna make a better life
for me, my
and even him cause
this has costed his self esteem..
I wanna a new back
that is free from disease
free from pain everyday,
strong enough to build a new life.
so I can dance and run
do anything I want.
Oneday I will be free to truly dream !!!!!
I want a new heart
in no need of repair
from loving in vain,
Broken from believing to long.
I wanna a heart that can
believe in love and let it in.
I wanna a heart
Not so damaged it can never be whole again.
Empty from giving to much
and not receiving even an ounce back.
I just wanna feel what a whole happy heart
feels like just once in my life.....
Oneday I know in my broken confused messed up heart that my day will come !!!!!!
Oneday.....
But this does not seem to be possible right now, I just gotta hold onto my faith and believe one day my time will come. A day will come when I can look in the mirror and feel no guilt for my decisions, be ready, be strong in body mind and spirit. One day the time will come that I alone can provide and care for my boys, myself. Yes one day it will come.
Please do not think this is an attempt at a poem, I do not claim to be one it is simply a form of self expression.
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yeah thats what i need
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Posted:Apr 29, 2015 6:20 am
Last Updated:May 1, 2015 6:26 am
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yeah that's what I need, someone between my legs worshiping and enjoying my sweet honeypot till this world and its troubles just fades away.
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