MUSTANGJUNKIE RIP RIP :(
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Posted:Apr 21, 2019 1:33 pm
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It is with a sad heart I have to announce someone we all knew passed away. My mom just found out last night. Tim Adkins aka MUSTANGJUNKIE passed away. Not exactly sure of the date but it looks like sometime between end of May & Fathers Day of 2018. Apparently he was diagnosed with Pancreatic and Liver cancer 6months prior to his death.
My mom dated Tim for a few years. And I have known him for several years prior to . There was some bad times while he dated my mom but all in all Tim had a good heart. He was just protective of his emotions.
I remember one time he was there for me in a fatherly way. My boyfriend back then had upset me badly one night at Ballpark bar where we all would hang out. As I was crying walking to my vehicle, I almost fell to the ground from being so upset. Tim caught me and held me in his arms hugging me and consoling me like a father would. moment meant alot.
Anyhow....to those who knew him...now you know.
RIP Tim Adkins aka Mustangjunkie. May you be at peace and no longer in pain.
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Something I read that was beautiful....
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Posted:Oct 19, 2015 9:32 pm
Last Updated:May 8, 2024 8:51 pm
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Some people say my love cannot be true
Please believe me, my love, and I'll show you
I will give you those things you thought unreal
The sun, the moon, the stars all bear my seal
Follow me now and you will not regret
Leaving the life you led before we met
You are the first to have this love of mine
Forever with me 'till the end of time
I read this on someone's profile and maybe it is their own words and maybe they got them from somewhere. I just thought they were beautiful. Made me think of someone special and dear to me......
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A dream so real...
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Posted:Aug 9, 2015 10:33 pm
Last Updated:Oct 9, 2021 1:55 am
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I was taking a much needed nap earlier, and had the most real dream ever. So real, that when I woke up, I had to go search my apartment to see if "he" was here.
All I remember is...
I am staying some hotel, its busy, I get to my room, and as I am walking in my phone goes off. A text message. I put my bags down and look at my phone. Its HIM! My ex! My heart starts racing and I am holding my breath. His text read something along the lines that he was thinking of me, missed me and wanted to see me. Then another text came through and it said I guess you don't care about me anymore, you haven't responded. I respond immediately with "I do! I do miss you. Where are you? IS this for real? Come see me." Now how he would be able to come see me, I have no idea, I was staying in a hotel for some work thing that I vaguely remember, and was not in IL at the time. IDK. Damn dreams. So another text comes thru saying he is on his way. Dumbfounded. I am just about to sit down on my couch in my hotel room and there is a knock at the door. Now, I had just traveled and was a mess, hot sweaty mess. I open the door and there he is standing, looking handsome as ever. I got weak in my knees and barely made out the words "oh my god...you're here.....umm come in....forgive me I look like a mess---" And he walks in, cuts me off and with his arms wrapping around me he began kissing me. I started to feel faint and grabbed on to him so not to fall down. He leads me to the couch where we sit and talk. I ask "How? Umm, why after all this time? Its been almost 2 yrs...what about Jamie (his wife)?" He says that she has no clue and some other things I don't clearly remember, but the feeling I got was she wasn't far away. I was in shock still, not knowing what to do or say. I mean, I wanted to just rip his clothes off and fuck him, but then I also wanted to cry and just talk about everything that has been in my head for the last 2 yrs...all my questions get answered and I tell him how miserable without him I have been. My dream happens fast. Next thing I remember is we are messing around, I lovingly and happily blew him. He started to go at me, to take my clothes off and continue but I stopped him saying we couldn't. He said that is ok, for now and he gets up to go to the bathroom. I hear the water running in the shower and he calls for me to join him. I do. The next thing I remember is him and I on the couch again talking and he says something about how we need to get to the dining hall for dinner before its too late. I ask "Are you afraid someone will see you with me and Jamie finds out?" He said he isn't worried. So as we are walking out of my hotel room, my phone rings. Its her...his wife. I squeak out "Umm, hi, what can I do for you?" She tells me "You do know we have 2 babies right? Is he with you?" As I am saying, congrats to them on their babies, he takes the phone from my hands and hangs it up. He takes my hand, throws my phone on the couch and he leads me out of the hotel room and we make our way to the dining hall. We get a table and we order food, I don't remember eating. We are seen by someone, I don't recognize them, but get that feeling in my stomach we should be worried. I ask him "I am scared you are going to get caught with me, we should go. I want to talk, and I don't want this to end." He says "Its not going to end. I am not going back to her. Its you. It has always been you. I just needed to time to realize what my heart already knew, I guess. I love you Shannon. I always have, always will." I begin crying, quietly. Tears streaming down my face that has the biggest smile upon my lips. But as my heart is jumping for joy, my stomach is achy, in fear, worry this isn't real. He takes my hand and kisses it and says "lets go!" We get back to my hotel room and there, we walk into a quiet bedroom, he stands in front of me, kisses the tip of my nose and says "How did I ever get so lucky?" (He used to say this all of the time to me). He brushes the hair from my face, tells me he missed me so much and he was sorry he put me through so much pain and torment. He promised to make it up to me every day all day for the rest of our lives.
And then I woke up. 
I swear this dream was so real. I woke up, my heart was pounding, I was sweaty and all I could think was "where is he?" as I got up and checked my bedroom, the bathroom and my office. And of course, he wasn't there. Cause he will never be there. I am just a stupid woman still in love with a man I cannot have, nor will I ever be able to have. I am a woman who misses a man that turned my world upside down and now I can't get past it. Maybe this is why I am still single? I have tried putting myself out there, but then always find reason to stray away or let the initial spark of a new interest, fizzle out. I don't know. I am talking silly now.
Bottom line is this, YES...I still love Chad, my ex. He is who ALL My blogs are about. The "CW" is him...his former name here "Chicagowood". I miss him every day. I wish I could just see his smile again, hear his voice, his laugh...and just talk. I just want to talk about all that happened and know wtf went wrong or whatever. Having said that, I do want to find my partner in life. I want to find a man whom I can connect with again, feel safe with and love again. I just am beginning to think it will never happen. So far, every man I have talked to or met has been fake from who I originally spoke to, or lied/played games, or the spark/chemistry just wasn't there. Am I doomed to be alone for good? 
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Scatter brained
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Posted:Aug 7, 2015 9:11 pm
Last Updated:Aug 8, 2015 8:40 pm
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Just some thoughts have been clouding my brain lately. I can't explain why my mind keeps going back to that place, that time when I was so happy. I guess I miss the simplicity of it all. I try to only smile when my brain takes itself in this direction. But lately its been hard not to frown, shed a few tears and just sit here praying and wishing for that phone call or knock on my door. I am silly stupid to even think these things. But it is what it is.
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Just in case he sees....
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Posted:Nov 3, 2014 9:53 pm
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2016 10:12 pm
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Thoughts of you scatter my brain.
Memories of the good times still fill me with joy.
Miss your sincere sweet smile.
The sound of your voice.
The soft touch of your fingers gliding thru my hair.
We are both in different places now, and i wish that werent so.
Any amount of time can pass, but Id still open the door with a warm embrace and hello.
Friends will think I'm crazy and thats just fine.
But what my heart holds for you is something that will never disappear.
Ive had many loves, but you will always be the best.
Thru all the bad, I will love you til the end.
Not a day goes by that you dont cross my mind.
Youre embedded there til the end of time.
My love for you will never fade.
Missing you has become part of my daily thing.
I wish you were here, to hold me in your arms.
Kiss my forehead and tip of my nose.
Look at me with those eyes that captured my soul.
Tell me how beautiful you think i am, and ask how you got so lucky.
Open up your gates baby, cause i cant wait to see the light.
Im here, just a phone call away or knock on my door.
Yes, im a bit crazy, for wanting you still.
I cant help it...i didnt fall, you tripped me up in your spell.
I know none of this rhymes, the hell with that.
Im just a girl, wishing that you were still my guy.
Dedicated to: My CW.
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MELTS LIKE GRILLED CHEESE...
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Posted:Jul 18, 2013 1:41 pm
Last Updated:Oct 9, 2021 1:55 am
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To: the man I met unexpectedly, enjoyed 5 great months with, fell in love with whole heartedly, whom I miss so much, crave and need each moment of every day.....My CW ♥ I love you and will always....
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I miss his sweet tender kisses on my neck.
I miss the way he'd make his way to my pouty lips.
Just one glance into his eyes would make me weak in the knees.
The curl of his lips into that sexy yet sweet smile would give me chills.
Feeling his hands caress my body....skim over my skin....would set me on fire.
His body pressed against mine....
His fingers entwined in my hair....
Pulling me closer to him...
Making my heart race.
However things went I always felt passion.
Whether he'd tease me seductively....
Bend me over my bed and spank me as I begged for more....
Grab a hold of me and pull me back to him as I squirmed....
I will never forget the image of his face between my legs....
That dark hungry look in his eyes when he looked up at me to tell me I had the prettiest pink pussy he'd ever seen....
How he made my shyness disappear....
My inhibitions fade away....
My insecurities melt away.
I will never forget the taste of my wetness on his lips....
His tongue invading my mouth as it just did down below....
I remember how transending it felt the first time he slowly slid deep inside of me....
The thought makes me get moist now.
I can imagine him above me....
Looking into my eyes deeply....
Penetrating me slow....
Deep....
In and out with such delicious delight.
He'd tell me that I was His....
This was His pussy....
"Mine"....
I would beg for more....
Beg for him to be harsher....
I needed to feel him....
Wanted to feel as one again....
His kisses so lustful. ...
His body so sexy....
His eyes that shook my soul....
His words that sent me over the edge.
Mmmmm then comes another favorite part of mine....
I knew when he was close....
He'd slowly pull out....
Tell me to open my mouth....
And he'd fill my mouth with his gorgeous cock.
I can remember tasting myself on him....
Sucking hard and gently stroking him....
Feeling him throb and pulsate in my mouth....
Feeling his cock get even more hard as it slide between my lips....
Hitting the back of my throat making me gag....
Ohhhh how I loved this part.
My eyes filling with tears as he violated my mouth....
He groans softly as he sees my seductive yet angelic smile....
I would give him that look....
The look that says I want your cum now!
And he would explode his mouth watering juices into my mouth...
Down my throat....
On my lips....
Sometimes I'd play with it....
My tongue savoring as much as I could.
I could never get enough of his thirst quenching cum.
I'd even beg for it.
Afterwards we'd lie next to one another....
I'd be wrapped in his safe embrace....
My head on his chest listening to his heart....
His fingers running through my hair....
His tender voice talking to me....
And all I could think about was....
How in love with him I was (am)....
How I've never had such life altering sex with anyone before him....
How I was secure in surrendering to him....
Submitting to him....
His needs, wants and desires.
How I'd do anything for him.
How I just wished I could be with him always.
I no longer have him.
I miss him.
Miss his smile....his laugh....his eyes....his warm embrace.
I miss the passion with him....the lust....the kink....the bliss.
I miss sex with him so bad.
I miss my friend.
I miss my lover.
I miss the man who could bring me to my knees.
He wasn't my Dom.
We weren't like that.
But he was and will always be my everything.
In a perfect world he would be here with me now.
But this world of mine is cruel....
So alone I lay here....
With thoughts of him....
Memories of our intimate times....
Having a hard time even sleeping in my own bed.
I wish I'd wake up....
And this all would have been a bad dream.
He'd be lying here next to me....
His arms wrapped around me....
Fingers running through my hair....
His soft lips kissing my forehead....
As I lay curled up to him where I've never felt more safe.
Wishful thinking....
Heart is still breaking....
I want my guy back....
I want my friend here....
I want my lover to knock on my door and bang me once more.
Thoughts of him whether I'm happy, sad or mad....
Still make me wetter than I've ever been.
"It's like the flood gates have opened" I once told him.
He didn't believe me....
Then I showed him.
All from just being near him.
Nobody has ever affected me like this.
Not just in a physical way....
This is how I know its real.
Just wish he did too.
You know who you are my dear. This is just thoughts I can't admit to you. I don't want to ruin the friendship I'm fighting for. If you're reading this...I hope you just smile and remember the great times we've shared. Yes I want more. I can't help it. Its you my sweets! I pray youll come back if things dont work out. But for now....I'll just close my eyes and pretend you're here and just be your friend. I love you with every ounce of my being. I'm forever yours. No matter what. Heart, body, & mind.
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For "Him" (you know who you are) :-* :"> >:)
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Posted:Mar 1, 2013 11:35 am
Last Updated:Aug 7, 2015 11:07 am
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You have come over to see me. I have something sexy on for you. I greet you at the door and you wrap your arms around me and kiss me. You push me up against the door with your body, one hand in my hair grasping it, holding me still. The other hand on the door next to my head. You're leaning in and kissing me passionately, your tongue teasing mine as our lips are locked together. You hear me moan softly. My body goes limp from your intoxicating kiss. Your hand that's in my hair, runs down the side of my face, grabbing my chin. You stop kissing me and look me in the eyes and say "these are my lips to kiss". Without saying a word I nod my head in agreement. Your hand slowly glides down my body. Caressing my breasts, sliding down the side of my body working your way south til I feel your hand between my legs. You stop for a moment, making me ache for more. With your knee, you spread my legs apart and your hand cups my pussy. You stop again, looking me in the eyes and you smile at me and kiss my lips. I feel your fingers push my lace panties aside and gently part my lips...I feel your thumb rub my clit, softly rubbing in circles. My legs get weak. I moan. And I feel your fingers slide into me deep. You whisper in my ear "already wet for me I see". I nod, biting my lower lip. You work your magic, fingering me as the palm of your hand presses against my clit. I look up towards the ceiling and groan. And you stop again. Fingers still inside of me but holding my pussy in your hand....you whisper in my ear "this is Mine." I whisper back.."yes, Ohhhhhh Yessss it is baby." You take your fingers out of me, take a step back and tell me to kneel before you. And I do. Before I can blink, your cock is out and is in front of my mouth. You tell me to keep my hands behind my back and to open my pretty mouth. I do as I am told. And you tease my mouth with your delicious cock. Rubbing it across my lips then pushing into my mouth and pulling out again. You continue doing this, your hands in my hair, fucking my mouth.....then taking your cock out to rub it all over my face. You tease me...rubbing it across my lips, my chin then back into my mouth. In and out of my mouth....pushing as far back til I slightly gag...(you know this pleases me). In and out slowly but going deep, then again you rub your cock across my lips, my cheeks then back into my mouth. When you can't hold back anymore, you tell me to look at you, you want to look into my eyes as you cum in my mouth. I look at you, bat my eyes and you slide in and out a few more times and you find your release. I feel your warm cum in my mouth, on my tongue, and I swallow every drop. You help me to stand up and you kiss my cheek and whisper "good girl" in my ear. You take my hand and I follow you to my room where its my turn.....
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Morning wetness.....
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Posted:Feb 1, 2013 3:17 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2014 1:26 am
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I am standing in front of the mirror, dressed to impress Him. He comes up behind me and admires the new sexy lingerie I bought to wear just for Him. He leans in to me and I feel His warm breath on my neck. His hand caresses my ass and I feel His hand slide between my legs. My body automatically responds by slowly spreading my legs apart. I feel His hand cup me, His fingers move past my lace panties and find their way between my lips. His fingers rub my throbbing clit. Then two of His fingers slip inside of me, while His palm presses against my clit. He leans into me again, and whispers into my ear "MINE". I shiver. He says it again, "MINE". I melt and barely am able to whisper back, "Yours, always."
And, I wake up. That was my dream this morning before I awoke. Just wanted to share. 
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Morning Dream.....
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Posted:Feb 1, 2013 3:17 pm
Last Updated:May 3, 2014 1:24 am
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I'm laying on His bed. I'm sprawled out, each leg and arm is tied to a bed post with silk ties. I'm wearing a black corset with silver trim. My breasts are exposed...hanging over the top of this beautiful corset He has bought for me. The music playing in the room is on repeat. (The Package) The bass guitar and drums radiate through my body. Every beat throbbing into my body...causing a clenching feeling deep within, my blood coursing through my veins heating my body, tingles running down my skin....I feel myself get moist. I'm blindfolded and gagged. Every so often He returns to the room and has His way with me. Fingers, lips, His tongue, His gorgeous hard pulsating cock, toys, and sometimes other sensual implements. He brings me so close to exploding, but never allows me to. He fills each hole, using me for His pleasure....then leaves.......
This goes on for hours it seems.....
Then I woke up! Wow!
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OFFICE FUN! (Erotica)
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Posted:Feb 1, 2013 3:16 pm
Last Updated:Aug 11, 2015 9:43 pm
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I am there, sitting on the edge of your desk, watching you stroke your cock for me. Hungrily watching your hand move up and down it, your body tensing up. I can hear your breathing get more heavy. I watch as your head falls back and you close your eyes in pleasure. I watch anxiously. You look up at me. You order me to straddle your lap so you can feel my wet pussy slide around your cock and disapper in me.
I feel your hands on my hips holding me still so you can enjoy just being inside of me, not moving....relishing in the warmth of my pussy around your cock. You lean your face in towards me and take a nipple into your mouth, nibbling on it, sucking on it, kissing it. I feel your hot breath on my skin, sending shivers down my spine, your hands moving up from my hips, into my hair, pulling my face to yours as your lips touch mine and kiss me softly at first, then deeply and more passionately. Our tongues entwined with one another, our lips locked, soft moans escaping from my lips.
I slowly begin to rise and fall on your cock...feeling you inside of me, filling me up. My fingers caress your cheek as I stare into your eyes, lust filled eyes, as you watch me take you inside of me with every movement I make. Up and down...in and out.
I stop abruptly, confusing you and I get up. I sit back on your desk and spread my legs for you and beg you to give me a tongue lashing. You kneel before me and run your tongue up and down my pussy, sucking my clit into your mouth, kissing my lips and diving your tongue into me. I feel your hands grasp at my ass pulling me into your mouth more. Your tongue explores another, more delicate place and I can't help but grab your head and squeeze my thighs together against your face.
You know I am so close to cumming so you stand up and slide your cock back into me.
In and out...slowly, then faster. Deeper with every thrust into me. Circling around inside of me, making me squirm beneath you. It feels so heavenly.
You look me in the eyes and say "You are MINE, never forget that. Now cum for me!"...and as you say that, its my undoing and I cum on your cock. My body shivers with pleasure, shaking from this glorious orgasm. I moan out your name as I keep cumming...cumming hard. Tears falling from the corner of my eyes because you give me such heavenly pleasure.
You thrust into me a few more times and then grab me by my chin, telling me to look at you. I do as I am told and stare deep into your eyes. I whisper to you, to cum for me. I want to feel you cum deep inside of me, so I can feel your juices drip out of me later. And with one last thrust...hard and deep....I feel your warm cum shoot inside of me.
Your body stills....staying inside of me....emptying yourself into me.
You lean down and begin kissing my lips. In between each kiss you say"You...are....Mine.....Always! You....Are....My, DirtyGirl...My, SassyBrat....My, Good Girl!" And with those words, and that look in your eyes, I cum again.
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