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First World Problems  

midnightkashmir 43M
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8/13/2014 11:32 pm
First World Problems

Well it's been at least two weeks since I have had sex. That puts me in a great mood...it's usually a lot longer.

My sex drive used to be what pushed me to get more athletic. But I have a confession to make:

I'm an alcoholic.

Not in the sense that I drink once a week. Or twice a week, or three times... I drink EVERY DAY.
I'm sick... every day.
I've been worse, but I was younger, and my body wasn't as used to it... and at the same time was better at coping with it.
This is, in a sense a cry for help. I don't want it to be, but if I can write about it and maybe get advice, or (Pitty?!) whatever, it helped last time a bit.
I've been drunk for about a week now. I've had NO money, so I've been borrowing, just for cheap hard liquor. It's quite pathetic.
Who I used to be, and who I am now are pretty much opposite.
I like to think that I don't know how I got here, but I do.
I always drink.

I don't ever want to post something here that doesn't have to do with sex, so I'm going to let you in on a little secret...
If the bet was No Alcohol = No Sex, sex would win out %90 of the time. That's not life though.

Life apparently isn't about sex. You have a whole ton of things going on not revolving around sex... it's CRAZY, I know... but it's true. You definitely can't base your alcohol life on sex, or vice versa.

So I'm not going to admit that a small part of me, my shadow, wants pitty. I'm just going to say that I'm going through a really rough time right now, and I'm going to write about it here.

rm_Joe23278 46M
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8/14/2014 12:36 am

 Try to get to an AA mtg, you're in a cycle that is not going to go anywhere but down. I know from first hand experience.


midnightkashmir 43M
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8/15/2014 11:54 pm

 Thank you Joe.
I haven't tried AA at all. My father said he goes, and he's been pissed at me when I tell him HALF of how much I drink.
The one thing I don't like about it is the religious aspect. I REALLY don't like that.
To be completely honest I am under the impression that a person can overcome alcoholism on their own.
QUITE a hypocritical statement for someone who says they came here for some type of help.
Actually writing about it helped me out last time I was this bad. I DO want real help, but I don't want it enough to put ANY effort into it.
... looking back at that statement.... I can say that I may be fucking crazy.
I DO have PLANS at rehabilitation. They involve getting healthy in every way... but ... I need some sort of kick start now that I think about it.

Thanks Joe.


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