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Changing My World: A Better Life  

submokey 69M/62F
2705 posts
4/27/2016 9:01 am

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4/30/2016 10:33 pm
Changing My World: A Better Life

Got married on leave to my first wife, had two sons, but mostly was here and gone, gone long periods of time. She left me, mainly because she liked dancing and playing. When I "quit", the big checks dried up, all the more reason for her to just not want to be married..
In between "jobs" gave me time to think some. 10 years of a hard life, a long time to justify bad things done in the name of "good", block out horrific scenes in my memory.
I had no illusions the people I worked for were bad, trying to do "good". Even still, knew they could not be trusted. I was once told my "orders" came from the "highest levels", but I never asked the why or who.
One day, a fateful one, I decided I wanted to change my world, make a better life for myself. I quit, told them no more "prized asset" game for me, walked away, disappeared as it were. (I had a very small funeral, BTW)
I started anew in the states, but, with their massive connections, my employer was not satisfied with me quitting, disappearing or "dying". And, not willing to give up their "prized asset", they sent 3 of my former comrades to "persuade" me to come back. It did not go well.....for them, as their orders were clear, bring me back or else. I did what I had to send a message to my ex-employer, and survive.
Got remarried, tried to live a plain, normal life. The marriage lasted maybe 2 years. Mostly my fault, my obsessions, my compulsive behavior. Ghosts in my closet that haunted me, so we did not make it.
Spent next few years lost, looking for my soul, make peace with myself. Wondered the world some, visited what few, trusted friends outside of the circle I was associated with, Buddhist monks. They gave the strength to face my "demons", make peace with myself, accept life again, get ready for the next life.
Got re-married, got my sons back, lived happily until they both graduated high school. LOL. Then both moved back with their mom out East, and my wife decided she didn't want to be married anymore. Humm, had heard that story before, 2 times. She moved out, with some taxi cab driver back East, that she met on the internet, never in person! She got pregnant, had a girl, her biggest wish. The taxi driver, he was shot and killed in a holdup few years later. Karma? Maybe so.
After that, worked contently at grocery store, a front end manager some, but mostly in the bakery, something I enjoy. Been with my Lady 18 years now, best part of my life, my true "better" half, keeps me grounded n sane. Of course, we've had our share of hard times (my surgeries/back issues), her DUIs/drug abuse. But, made us stronger from it, stronger love!
Now, I'm still a hermit, un-trusting, and unfriendly in real life, walls built long ago for a reason, to survive. I live peacefully, and entertain you great people some with my "life's" story! (Hopefully)
(no names, no secrets revealed, but there are no innocent peeps to protect!)


Romance her heart, tease her body, enjoy the company shared in bed n out! Treasure every moment spent together, in good times n bad!
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sphxdiver 74M
21063 posts
4/27/2016 9:05 am

 I hear everything and nothing.


submokey replies on 4/27/2016 10:27 am:
LOL! Good policy.

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