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Being on the back burner....  

Single1inNeed 51F
12 posts
5/10/2011 7:11 pm
Being on the back burner....

I am SOOO tired of putting myself on the back burner.
I have put others in front of myself for so long I have no clue what I want, how to get it, or where to even find it.
I am on a dating site, that I cannot find a decent guy to even look at me, then there are the ones I would like to get to know, but I feel they are out of my league.
WTF is wrong with me, why can't I feel sexy? Why can't I be a grown woman and just gooooo out and dooooo something fun? Well where is there to go, or with?
Why in the heck can't I find a LIFE up here? Before I moved everyone was like "Oh I love the Quad Cities" " Oh your so lucky you get start a new life for yourself"
Want to know what I have?
A job.
No life, no friends, nothing but go to work, and come home. I rent movies from a RedBox because I watch so many for God's sake, I have to budget my only form of entertainment!!
It's hard these days being a single woman NOT making a ton of money, but enough to pay her bills, watching penny's, budgeting just to live, just to go to work.
What's cheap enough to go do for FREE, because $20, will only get me so far at a bar, so no point in even going.
I am not a women that just let's a guy take over and pay for everything, but I am beginning to feel that the women that live with that mentality actually find the guy that will do it, therefore she is happy, so all is happy.
You know, I have never been bought a diamond? No man has ever loved me enough to buy me a ring with a diamond, not ear rings, not even a cheap knock off ring he could have passed off as a diamond, heck I wouldn't know the difference.
I am so tired, I weep, actually I weep at why I cannot be loved ENOUGH to be put on the front burner in someone Else's life. When can I be the one that actually takes and receives, well I do not have that mentality, but maybe that's part of the problem. Maybe I have never let my guard down enough to let some JUST DO IT...
God help me, all I want is a best friend, a man to love me for me, to think of me, to be there for me, to love me with the same passion, the same love, the same need as I will him.
I am tired.
I like to blog and usually not on here, nor do I rant like a wussy woman, but I had to get this out of me.
Be prepared I will blog some things that you will wonder what goes on in my mind, and why I am not making money writing!
Lol... thanks for reading, stay tuned for xx rated next time!

rm_3x23 59M
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1590 posts
5/10/2011 8:06 pm

 So quit going to bars. Seriously, stay away from bars. Bars were invented as a place for people to tell lies and little else.

If I could make a suggestion, try going to a mall. Just window shop, and maybe sip a drink at the food court. Try it 2 or 3 times. You'll notice at least on familiar face in the crowd looking in your direction.


horny196364 60M

5/11/2011 6:46 am

 love to chat with you sometime


lonely_lover64 60M
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7 posts
6/7/2011 4:15 am

 Hello Darlin, I know exactly how you feel. Everyone else comes first and you wait for someone to notice that you have needs to and nothing..... Asking for it then getting it just isnt the same, someone to know what you need and to just give it is what we need.

BTW, I liked reading your little fantasy what an imagination

love to talk to you sometime if you get a chance, Take care


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