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Blogs > random1235 > Confessions and Observations

Mad Season - Above  

random1235 48M
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6/7/2015 12:03 pm
Mad Season - Above
I don't know how many people know about this album. I won't really talk about the album itself, but about my life and how this album fit into it. (Honestly, that sounds deeper than I intend it to be.)

When I was living in a college dorm, I participated in an Easter-egg hunt put together by whoever ran the dorm. I got out early and got most of the eggs, in retaliation for someone doing that the year before. Amongst the prizes were a bunch of CDs which, taken as a group, were obviously from the bargain bin. This was one of those CDs.

After listening to the start of a few of them, I pronounced them garbage and proceeded to give them to my Dad, who needed something to feed the CD player in his new truck. A little bit later, I was driving with him, and some nice songs were playing. I asked, "What is this?" He replied, "This is one of the CDs you gave me." D'oh!

I managed to borrow it a lot for a few years after that. Then I sort-of forgot about it, as I was able to build my own music collection. Then, last week, as I was perusing (looking over or through in a casual or cursory manner) the stock of a thrift store, I happen to see a copy of this CD. I bought it, and I'm listening to it as I write this (current track: #4, "I'm Above").

So, this is where things get deeper. I had, shall we say, "social issues" in middle school and high school. I used college, among other things, to help stabilize my personality after all of that suffering. This CD, especially the song "River of Deceit", was a significant part of that recovery.

Here are some of the lyrics of that song which stood out to me:

"My pain is self-chosen"

"...cut off my pride, and buy some time"

"Now I can grow a beautiful shell for all to see"

I thought that last one was a little awkward, especially because there is a beat between "beautiful" and "shell" I thought it should be, "Now I can grow a pretty shell, for everyone to see".

Anyway, listening to these songs again, probably for the first time in fifteen years or so, is creating a lot of recollections and providing some perspective.

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