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Holy Sh*t!! I'm going to be a grandma  

demonicsexkitten 48F
5182 posts
3/20/2015 8:41 pm

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3/27/2015 10:55 pm
Holy Sh*t!! I'm going to be a grandma

Well... I know people my age that have 2 or 3 grandkids already (or at least in college or graduating high school... the women I know with 2 or 3 grandkids are a few years older than I am)

And of course my "" isn't my flesh and blood . She's only 5 weeks along and wants to wait until 8 weeks to tell anybody other than myself and her dad (she's even making her mom wait).

It's a secret but since nobody here knows her (and few know me in real life) it's safe here.

Wow.

Envy. Hurt. Such Love and Joy for her. Excited. Truly happy too.

I also feel like crying. Totally stupid. Though a couple friends totally understand the feeling, and really my "" does too. I mean... she's known me since she was 4 years old, and when she was 6 she offered to babysit for me if her dad and I got married and had babies.

I guess I'm having a "wild Friday night" after all... though wild emotional roller coaster wasn't quite what I had in mind.

Wish I had warm, strong arms to hold me while I feel sorry for myself. Though... tomorrow one of my best friends is going to feed me cookies and make me watch movies LOL.

Which reminds me... I should NOT skip eating just because I'm emotional.

For those of you wishing to see my doumbeks: I will get the pics tomorrow. I was about to go take the photos when the baby news hit. We spent a long time talking after that, and now it's too dark to get the photos I wanted.

kzoopair 73M/71F
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3/20/2015 8:46 pm

 Don't be too envious. My folks had ME for a son. I caused their white hairs.
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demonicsexkitten replies on 3/20/2015 8:53 pm:
LOL

My white hairs ... Tonight may have given me an extra one or two hah.

I feel so messed up.

DIVISION77 47M
8325 posts
3/20/2015 10:04 pm

 I feel sorry for people my age who already have kids old enough to have kids.

Says something about our society.

I don't even date people with kids, so of course I look down on kids who are having kids......

Wasting your life before it's even begun is not a smart choice.


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demonicsexkitten replies on 3/21/2015 4:44 pm:
She's 24. When she was 20 she told me she wanted children someday but not until she was at least 24. So she's right on her time table. Though she also isn't having a baby just to have a baby but because she feels everything else in her life is perfectly situated and she feels it's right (and so does the father)

easy_going2014 57M
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3/20/2015 10:20 pm

 I believe that grandkids are the most precious beings I the world... (except that I do have a passion for women... be that as it may)...

If your daughter (real or earned) let you in on the news, it should be a joyous occasion.

I fought the notion of being a grandparent, because I've always fought the next stage of my life: 1) being weaned off a breast-feeding (I'm still sore about that); 2) going thru puberty; 3) dating women; 4) marrying; 5) having children; 6) divorcing (not really a next stage, but, it happens); 7) grand kids... etc... whatever lies ahead... if it doesn't kill me, it will make me last a little longer!!! just sayin'...

If you have this closeness with your daughter then, you have the opportunity to share in the happiness and joy of seeing your grandchild grow up... you'll make choices instead of things you have to do... and, the reward will be there, everyday!!!!

so, congrats to you!!!
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demonicsexkitten replies on 3/21/2015 4:48 pm:
Thank you

The funny thing is... I was naming my future grandkids before ever I thought of having my own hahaha. Even as a teenager I loved the idea of being a grandparent. Ageless, timeless, wise..

So... despite never marrying or having kids (in my world they belong in that proper order. And no: never marrying wasn't my choice. It kinda takes a 2nd person, the RIGHT 2nd person, for that to happen. I'm still not desperate enough for a green card husband!).... I will still get the grandchildren I've always wished for.

That's something at least

Nuke_N_Naughty 52M/54F

3/20/2015 10:21 pm

 WOW! That is quite a huge thing to hit you at this point in your life, but I imagine you will handle it with the same grace and panache that you handle just about everything once you get over the initial shock of it.

I have to admit that I am getting to the age now where the thought of having grandchildren in not quite as odd as it has been, but I am hopefully still a few years away from that. I will also admit that while most of me is dreading the thought of being old enough to be a grandfather, there is a small part of me that is very much looking forward to it.
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demonicsexkitten replies on 3/21/2015 4:52 pm:
Every time one of my HS friends had kids my mom would say "That's okay, I'm not old enough to be a grandma yet!" But she's been glaring at my brother and I for a number of years now. She's a bit grandma-envious (except that she's "grandma" to practically any little kid she knows too)

What's weird is knowing that I was graduating college when my mom was the age I am now. And I've not had any kids yet. She was the youngest mom out of all my friends growing up.

39lawless 58F
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3/21/2015 9:52 am

 I don't know about you but I was never taught or shown that it was ok and, dare I say, normal to have mixed emotions about "joyous" events. I hope you continue to feel every single emotion you have and not beat yourself up for the ones that you deem inappropriate. That's living a full, rich life...big hugs!
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demonicsexkitten replies on 3/21/2015 5:23 pm:
I've never been taught that either. I was taught the "I love you, but I don't have to like you" thing. Which logically corresponds in a way, I suppose.

At first I felt guilty feeling as I did, and very confused... because I DO love her. But we talked, and I mentioned all of how I was feeling. She totally gets it. Having her say she's okay and understands my mixed emotions ... actually made me love her a little bit more, and opened my heart up.

demonicsexkitten replies on 3/21/2015 5:23 pm:
*BIG HUGS* Back

easy_going2014 57M
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3/22/2015 1:52 am
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VerandahPoly 80M  
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3/27/2015 9:53 am

 My grandkids are really neat, but ther folks moved from The Cities an hour away to Vashon Island off Seattle.


demonicsexkitten replies on 3/27/2015 6:32 pm:
That's gotta be hard.

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