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Nap Time for Nympho
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Nap Time for Nympho Hello Blogland, It is good to be back. We left Amsterdam at midnight Saturday and got in just after lunch Sunday. I took a 3-4 hour nap before I hit the road and managed to stay awake until 6:30pm Sunday. I was out until about 7am Monday morning then I was wide awake. It was a fabulous drive up and back. The trip was great too. The zoning in the city center is changing and I hope it isn’t going to spread out from there. The trip wasn’t quite as much of a cathartic release as I had hoped it would be but it was fab none the less. Amsterdam is without a doubt my favorite city in the world. If I could have a 2nd house in Europe that would be where I’d want it. The weather was gorgeous but still cooler than I expected. I have a new rule about packing for there. Always pack warmer clothes than you think you need! I always hate leaving there but happy to know I’ll be back soon. I was really needing some home down time anyway. I feel like I’ve been traveling, packing or unpacking since the beginning of June. I’m happy to have a break to just hang out here at home. I have no travel plans until maybe the middle of Aug and those are big maybes right now. I came home to a clean house full of beautiful flowers courtesy of my gorgeous GF. She is sooo sex. She went a little overboard with the flowers because now I feel guilty about probably killing and certainly messing up her bday presents to me. It was incredibly sweet. Her who is Lil’ Bits off and on BFF even cleaned Lil Bit’s room for her. I love coming home to a clean house with flowers. Unfortunately that honeymoon only lasted until yesterday when my request for a break after an argument lead to her breaking up with me. Ahhh well. The Viking has been in Turkey a few weeks. He just moved into his apartment as the Mistress was coming in for almost a month. He was really hurt and pissed that I didn’t go to see him before she came and made a big deal out of telling me that I could come anytime I wanted no matter who else was there. Too bad I don’t believe that for a second other than as a way for me to possibly piss her off enough to leave him and I’m not going to be the bad guy for him. He’s supposed to be working on the revised relationship plan but he had said he would finish it this weekend. If I get it by this weekend I’ll be surprised and if it is worth what it is printed on that will be even more shocking. The same day the Mistress was flying in my mom was telling me that she has cervical cancer. It hasn’t been staged yet so she doesn’t know how bad it is but she’s already decided to treat it as aggressively as she can. She was glad I didn’t freak out. My sister did and posted something on FB which caused a freak out among the family. My sister will tell the despite my mom asking her not to. Lil Bit is off with her daddy vacationing and he’s been warned about it so I’m not too worried about her reaction but it is going to be really hard on her. This will be the first time she’s really had to deal with someone close getting really sick. I am worried about how this will play out. Thankfully my mom’s husband has the money to take care of her. I wonder if she didn’t know this already? Hopefully whatever she needs she’ll get without family having to go take care of her. I know for sure that looking my mom’s mortality in the face is going to be an emotional roller coaster for me and yet nothing like when I took care of my Grandmothers as they died. Don’t get me wrong I’m not putting my mom in her grave early but it is an inevitable consequence of her getting cancer at 60 years old. Literally on her birthday. Most of you haven’t been here long enough to have read my real therapy sessions where I poured my full life’s history in all its sordid glory here. This place has always been a therapy couch for me just more at times than others. My mom and I have a very strained relationship. I keep her at a safe distance for myself and Lil Bit. I try not to let my past horrors at her hands color my judgment with her as a grandmother. This is going to make that harder if I have to help her. My sister certainly isn’t capable of caring for anyone or anything and I am worried my mom is going to try to charge me with my sister’s care if she dies first. Not something I want to have to deal with. Mrs. M returned the 2nd vehicle I’d loaned her while I was gone yesterday evening. The timing was bad because the Viking had just IM’d saying he was free to talk on the phone. I haven’t talked to him on the phone since the night I got into Amsterdam and that was only for a few quick minutes. Before that I haven’t actually talked to him since before he left. We’ve chatted a few times and a few texts but nothing of significance. So I asked her if she needed me to drive her home and told her why. I said I was going to hang out on the balcony for a few minutes while he found his phone and then I needed to call him. She said she’d planned on walking home and would leave in a few minutes. She asked about my day and of course we got to talking about the Viking. Something I said she didn’t like and the conversation went downhill. I tried to steer it back to I need to make a phone call not have an argument but eventually had to tell her to leave that I was done with the conversation and she needed to leave. Not how I wanted to spend my evening. She just can’t accept that I don’t have to take or even listen to her advice and I don’t have to drop everything when she’s here. She texted 13 times by this morning. Basically she sees me asking for a break as with holding love and affection. I just need some fucking time to myself away from everyone. I slept all day today. I talked to the Viking on the phone for a few minutes last night after Mrs. M left but we won’t really get to have any significant discussions until the Mistress leaves or I go there and maybe not even then. I spent the day in bed with Buster Boo. It was fabulous. Of course I’ll probably be up all night but I don’t have to be anywhere until 3pm tomorrow so it doesn’t matter. The Viking accused me a doing exactly what Mrs. M is accusing me of; that my choice to not go to Turkey or to not continue a discussion with her is me “unconsciously” manipulating them by withholding my love and affection. Since when is setting a boundary for myself a mechanism to control and manipulation others? I told the Viking I would talk to my therapist about it. She disagrees with them and says they are most likely projecting onto me because that is what they would do in my situation. She suggested that I think about and look for patterns in the relationships I choose. Particularly looking for patterns of choosing people who are not able to make healthy attachments with me. I’m beginning to think I may have a bad habit of picking people with very narcissistic traits which triggers many of my abandonment and abuse issues. Not a good choice for me. On the positive side I’m now down to 127! Planning to get my but back in the gym tomorrow with Pilates and work my way back up to Power Pump on Friday for my Bday! My mom’s cancer of course has me thinking about my own health and mortality. I plan to ask my provider here when/if there’s a way to get full body cancer scans done. Can’t hurt to ask. I have nothing on my calendar this week other than to veg and enjoy being home. I am now lover-less until after Aug 6 and maybe not even then. Good time to focus on me. I hope all my favorites pervs are having a great summer. I’ll try to get some pics up soon. I’m feeling good about my body and looking forward to getting it in the best shape I can. Kisses, L  Kisses, LA    |
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Very sexy photo. Kisses
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GOOD
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that's sucks about your mom...i'm keeping my fingers crossed that it's early stage AND that you don't end up sucked into the middle of it. As for the folks (I was going to write asshats but thought that might be a tad harsh lol) who are trying to manipulate you because you aren't doing what they want, fuck 'em! I was warned, and totally saw it play out, that when I started setting boundaries and taking care of myself that others would not like that and their bad behavior would ramp up to try and shame me back to how they want me. DON'T FALL FOR IT! haha - I know you aren't! Good for you for taking care of yourself...and please, pretty please, be gentle with yourself as you look at the types of people in your life. You are doing the best you can with what you know and you'll figure it out. xoxo Always tell the truth Use kind words Keep your promises Giggle and laugh Be positive Love one another Always be grateful Forgiveness is mandatory Try new things Say please and thank you Say your prayers Smile ~Author unknown
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I'm sorry to hear about your Mom Peach. Its never easy to hear about the mortality of one's parent(s) no matter what the relationship is like. I hope it will turn out to be ok. Sounds like Amsterdam is great fun! A woman always need a lil "me" time 
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7/21/2015 4:12 pm |
So sorry to hear about your mom's diagnosis. I hope that, one way or another, your family comes through it okay. Amsterdam? You lucky thing! I'll travel the world for non-work purposes again some day...when I'm an old man and can't enjoy it the same way... 
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Cancer took 2 of my close friends last year. Hope all goes well!! Yes!! Show off your sexy body! you are a pleasure to look at my pretty one!! I work out every other day. I try to keep my bod in good shape!!
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